Just Because...

Just Because...

Moody, that's the term that it has been coined. The uncontrollable feelings that overwhelm you at times and you are not sure where they are sourced from.

One moment the slightest provocation makes you want to tear everything to pieces, then the next you are bursting with joy and spreading it.

I truly envy people with control over their emotions, or the ones with no visible emotions.

....Because whilst my character has been hailed as infectious because of my bubble nature, it comes at a cost of being the exact opposite sometimes too.

But no,

You should not show that other side of you because with the same passion you bring joy, is the same passion that you add darkness and anger to a world that already has enough of it.

So you bottle it in, bottle it in so deep down that it starts to force itself out through the pours of all you do. Inexplicably. Unexpectedly.

Your daily activities, the way you shut the door, the way you stir your soup, the fly that landed on the TV, suddenly fills you with incomprehensible annoyance, annoyance that boils into rage when triggered by yet another event you can't control.

Bubbly, joyful, bursting with emotions people are amazing for the world, because they spread love with an infectious passion but for every ying there is a yang.

But don't worry world, it is not for you to deal with.

The other side of us;

the consequence of being us, the darker, less favourable emotions,

they are not for you to experience, we apologise for the moments they do seep out and you are faced with it. Then you ask us, why are you so annoyed, and the response will be, just because....