I just remember someone from history.
He left me just like that.
As if telling me the things i wanna hear could make the situation lighter.
He never know how hurt it is.
To be hang just like that.
Actually it makes hurt worse.
"Im sorry girl, for causing you much pain"
I hear from someone's post. It seems like she's inlove. So much.
Then i saw HIM in someone's post, smillibg in front of some lady that i dont know.
Then, i think. It is. This is the fruit of my sacrifice.
I mean the sacrifice of letting him go cause im finally slap by the reality that his happiness were never found in me.
Nakakatawa. Nakakainis. Hindi ko maintindihan kung san don ako lulugar. But i choose to keep silent.
I hate myself being mean.
If ako lang masusunod. I want to be happy cause i see how good his situation is.
But i cant just be like that. My emotion is hard-headed. I cant tame it lalo na't ako lang mag isa. And its killing me again.
Again.
Same date.
Same hurt.
Like, taon lang ang nagbago at SIYA.
Pero ako parang natulog lang ako tas i just realize ganon pa din pala.
"Wake me up when September end".
Usong uso lalo na at Oct. 1 ngayon
I have this urge na basahin ulit yung convo namin and just found out. SEPTEMBER 30 is the time when i lose the game.
What a hurt.
What a surprise.
I automatically breath hard as my tears run down faster that i dont have any strength to wipe those.
Ito pala yun.
Realizing after this 1 year i stock up.
Like it just frozen for the feeling to be numb pero nandiyan pa din siya.
Well yea. HAPPY BITTER ANNIVERSARRY.
