My beloved one... I have no words to explain this feeling. It feels as if I'm falling off a cliff, the adrenaline running.. closing my eyes waiting for the impact.. the impact of my heart crashing against the waves of your emotions...
Happiness is rather difficult to find when one feels broken inside... the flooding emotions of knowing that you most likely would never love me... for you already loved someone else....
however, your very being attracted me back every time.. your smile, like crescent moon. Your hair, sleek like a ravens wings...
you pass by me like the autumn wind blowing through the trees. Here one second, gone the next.... you being next to me makes me want to shout with joy, because I can imagine us being together... but that is nothing more than a fantasy, Fabricated in my world of imagination where my wildest ideals become my realities...
I imagine you being my knight. Being there whenever I need you... your black wings protecting me from the negativity of the world.. even though I try my best to manage, having you is like having a sword. You help me drive away the pain of not being alone...
But then I awake, and realize that none of this is true, it cannot be because you never existed.......
