I am so stupid for letting her go, for replacing her with an undeserving girl who never loved me from the start. To describe her, she was perfect, everything about her was just so beautiful, her red lips, her smooth hands, her fair skin and her sparkling eyes, I just cant believe that I had once let a single tear drop from her angelic eyes down to her face. And to describe myself, I’m really stupid! She loved me more than anything in this world, I don’t know what came into my mind that I thought of cheating on her and the worst is, for a girl who is an expert in a relationship.
“Hey babe” She whispers in my ear seductively as she leans on me, and honestly I was seduced with her perfect figure, she was just well endowed. I quickly grabbed her waist and kissed her aggressively I laid her on the couch.
I got so surprised when I saw _________ she found me doing something behind her back, she studied so hard in the US wanting the best for our relationship but I never gave any importance to her efforts. As she stares at the both of us, she did nothing but to stand still letting her tears flow down from her eyes, she never blamed me nor hurt us. Then I heard her soft voice.
“I thought you…”
“Do you love her?” She asked calmly without any anger but pain
“Yes, I’m sorry but I think I love her more than I love you”
“R-really?” her voice was shaking because of the unbearable pain Im giving her.
How foolish I am to tell her those things, her cries became harder that she cant almost bear with it, she stood still as she watch that girl cling on me and kiss me, I know its painful for her but I just cant move a little, I felt like I’m frozen on the place where I was standing. I never saw her for almost two months, and during that time that girl was the one who fulfilled her place, ‘I think I have fallen for her’, I would always tell myself. But when I saw how she flirts with a group of guys, I felt nothing but anger, ‘so this is what it feels like, I am not hurt, but I felt so regretful for dumping ________ for this kind of girl. ‘she’s a slut’
It was a surprising morning; I think I know this sensation. I just woke up realizing that I still love _______ and as I sat up on my bed, I watch her portrait that was still hanged on the wall of my room. Her sleeping face was really beautiful, her long eyelashes, her lips, and her small hands, I missed it all. I miss the morning I wake up with her locked in my arms, her breathe and the touch of his hands, the way she looks at me, the way she says ‘I love you’ and the way she kisses me. I want her back; I realized no other girl is sweeter than her. I want her to ride on my back again and feel her soft breathe. Her soft lips on mine… I want to hold her hands and watch her do cute things, I want to be the only man in her life like she always tell and show me. I want to take more pictures with her; I want to do more things with her. I want to be the first person I’ll see every time I wake up, I want to make her my princess, and… I want to tell her how much I love her… But I guess, its all impossible to happen, there are so much things that could happen in those two months, just how am I suppose to tell her? I don’t want to hurt her anymore, just why can’t I realize how deep my love for her this late? How can I bring her back to me and hug her once more, when I know that its too late, when I know that she’s happy with someone else’s company, when she had forgotten all about me, when she’s already engaged… When I know that I can be his only man anymore… I hate how stupid I really am!!!
