My courage my faith my confidence thank you for giving them back to me

Thank you

My name is Sarah I am 13 I have been a fan of Christina grimmie for the past 6 years I found her out while watching a Artemis from young justice tribute and it was the song not fragile I loved the song so much that I looked up who it was by and i saw it was by hher and then I saw her titanium cover and I realized that I watched that video multiple times and then I fell in love with her music my teachers started asking me what I did to calm down when I was sad or mad I would say I'd listen to Christina grimmie I started getting bullied badly in 5 grade a girl named Trish bullied me ( now understand I just moved there and I had no friends whatsoever but my twin did and so did by brother) I finally made my first friend but she was also friends with trish and every day at recess Kate my friend and I would ask trish if she would like to play with us but she would always make up some excuse not to and at some point she would always take Kate away to talk I would ask if they would come back and they said yes but they never did  she started getting really mean to me and I finally went to the guidance  and while  we waited she said i tortured everyone that i stole friends that my sister was better than me and that I was a crybaby I finally asked her if she would care if I died and she said no I wouldn't so I really started to doubt my confidence and I started thinking of suicide and if my life was worth anything
I started getting over it and then the next year I met Michaela shifer and one of my best friends today Meghan brash michaela started lying to me saying that Meghan didn't really like me or she didn't want to be around me whenever I asked her Meghan would say that not true Michaela was so controlling over Meghan and who she hung out with and what she did michaela always tried to keep me away from Meghan I finally told my teacher and thankfully she believed me michaela always lied about me and finally on my birthday I was leaving for the bus when she came up to me and said that I maid Meghan cry I said how and she said I talked trash about her and I never did I immediately fell to my knees and started crying and when I got on the bus she cyber bullied me and she said that my hard was so big that I couldn't sit or walk straight  the next morning I talked to Meghan and asked her what she thought she started crying and I heals her telling her that it was ok  then michaela came out and said Sarah I'm so sorry she wasn't later I over heard michaela talking to Meghan and she said why are you helping Sarah you're supposed to be helping me not her and she never new until recently and we went to the guidance were she lied her way out of everything she said that she was telling some guy on the bus to sit down but know because it was at 5:00 when she did that to me so I immediately started dissing my self again and I started thinking of suicide over and over and over again I even secretly tried I listened to Christina's music 24/7  but I lost my faith my courage and my confidence in myself her music restored it I met her 3 days after her birthday and 2 months before she was killed

When I found out I cried for 5 days and night I have a signed shirt worth over 3 million dollars but I won't sell it for the world

I dreamt wished and prayed every day to meet her  and I finally did something tells me she was not meant to die but then I also feel she was 

Thank you soooooooo much lord for making my dream come true  may peace be with you Christina

Sorry this was sooo long comment and vote pls and tell me what you think peace