Two Boys, One Love Boyxboy

Chapter 18

"What did you do?" Sean asked.
"I.. He defended me again when a guy who kissed me.. Collin. And I called him a faggot, cause I didn't wanted anyone to know he was my boyfriend and that I'm gay."
"Who exactly knows?" He asked.
"Uhmm, you, Celia, Dave and Daniel"
"Aren't you afraid Dave will tell?"
"Yeah I am."
"May I give you an advice? Talk to Daniel, please. You will regret throwing away you're one true love. And to be honest I would never give advices like this to a guy I have a small crush on but I can see that you and Daniel are made for each other, therefore I will advice you to talk with him"
"I would give anything just to talk to him, but he practically ran away when I tried talking to him"
"Try harder"

I got home and saw Daniel lying in his bed reading with beats on.
What should I do? Oh god I haven't thought this trough! Suddenly he got up and walked to the door. My staring at him drove him away, well done Logan. I sighed and grabbed his arm right below his elbow gently and stopped him from going out.
"Wait, please"
"I'm in a hurry, sorry" he said trying to leave again, but I quickly went to block the door. I locked it behind my back and looked at him with an apologetic smile.
"Please. Let me explain."
He sighed and backed away from the door.
"Fine" he said and sat on the couch behind him.
"There is something I haven't told you, and I think you need to know" I said and got comfortable on the couch next to him. I looked down tears almost running down my cheeks.
"You're not the only I haven't told this to, I haven't told anyone, not even my mom knows."
"Are you ok?" He asked concerned and scooted closer to rub my back. His touch felt so good, I've missed him so much, it feels like I haven't touched him in years, I miss him so much. I want to just get this over with and make up already. but I know it takes a lot more then just that, I had to tell him. I had to tell him about my dad, about what happened, about everything.

I managed to pull out a smile to assure him everything was fine.
"I think I'm ready to tell you, I've always trusted you but this is so hard for me to talk about, but I know that if it means that I might have a chance with you I will tell you anything, I would do anything, you need to know that. Cause Daniel, I love you." he looked down not knowing what to do, I didn't wanted him to say or do anything I just wanted him to know. After that's said I can finally tell him. I took a deep breath hoping not to have a panic attack. Daniel suddenly, out of nowhere placed his hands on mine and made me relax. I smiled at him who was just looking down blushing.

"Me and my dad was always closer then what I was with my mom, I love my mom, don't get me wrong, but let's just say there were a lot of father-son moments in my life. One day I decided to tell him what I've been feeling, I chose to tell him about how i kept staring at guys the wrong way and not at girls, I told him about my sexual orientation and he didn't take it well. the day after I woke up to see him gone, I haven't spoken to him since. I lost my dad cause I was gay. He didn't even say anything to me that night, well yes he did say one thing 'goodnight' and then he left, and he was the closest parent I had. That is why I'm so afraid my mom will find out, my dad left me might as well be my mom and do the same. I was scared, and I still am. That's why I can't expose my secret like you. all I want is for us to be together, because I love you, damnit I love you so much it hurts Daniel. I love you" I sobbed and looked down. There, I said it. My biggest secret just got exposed to the guy I'm not even sure I can call boyfriend anymore.