*HUH!" *heavy breaths* again with this nightmare. I woke up with tears rolling down my face. It's been almost two months and I still have nightmares. I miss him so much. I want my baby back, John was the love of my life.
"Ashley!!" My mom yelled.
"Coming!" I yelled back. I ran down the stairs because I didn't want to make my mom wait. She has a short temper.
"Sweetie, you still upset about John?" She asked. I just stood there looking at her. Bitch of course I'm still upset, he's the love of my life! I didn't say anything, that meant yes.
"It's ok, it will get better." She assured.
"When?" I asked.
She said "Maybe forever, but it will get better.
Give it some time, then maybe some more.
You simply got so much living in store"
(Hehe anyone know what that quote is from? ~Christina)
"Never mind, you can go back upstairs. Love you" my mom said.
"Thank you mom, I love you too" I answered. I went back to my room and saw my picture frame of me and John on my desk. I automatically started crying. I went over to it, picked it up and hugged it letting all my painful tears drip onto it. I put it down and grabbed my teddy bear. He gave it to me, it's my favorite thing ever. I don't know what I would do if I ever lost it. It means the world to me.
I went back on my bed and got my phone. I texted my best friend Jess as usual. We talk all the time and come to each other whenever something is wrong.
Me: Jess, I had another one of those nightmares.
Jess: It's ok, that's normal. He was your first love, of course you are gonna miss him.
Me: I miss him so much.
Jess: I know Ash, you just have to give it time. I know it's hard but I know you can do it. Live your life to the fullest, we only have one ya know. I gtg, I'll see you in school tomorrow. Get some sleep and feel better. Luv ya ❤️
Me: Thanks, I can always come to to for help. Luv you too gurl 💙
She's right, I should go to sleep and rest on it. I'm tired anyway. Im just so sad I didn't get to tell him...I was right about to and then the stupid car crash..I just still can't believe I was so close and didn't get to say that I...
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Hey everyone! I really hope you all are enjoying the story. It may be a little boring now, but trust me the good stuff is coming soon. Sorry not sorry for another cliff hanger! LOVE YOU ALL!!! 💙😘
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The Boy She Loved Is Gone, Sort Of
RandomAsh recently lost her boyfriend in a terrible way. She is having trouble getting through it so she talks to her best friend Jess. They always help each other out on everything. Ash started to live her life normally again and then summer comes. Her a...
