I Am Happy ✨Na Jaemin

I Am Happy [Ex?!Jaemin X Reader X Mark]

Huh. Has it always been this way? You wondered to yourself as you looked up to the clock hanging on the wall. It reads 12:21am. Lying down on the couch, you sighed.

You couldn't stop your habit of looking at the clock every time it turns midnight or night in any way.. even after you broke up with Jaemin. Jaemin.. You stopped yourself from thinking about him and yet, here you are, looking through the photo album you kept secretly.

Your heart ache with pain as you flipped through pictures the both of you captured. The places both of you adventured. The bittersweet memories that still haunts your mind even though you tried so hard to forget about him. Well, you did tried. However, every now and then, you wondered how he is. Did he get another girl? Is he doing alright? Is he thinking about you like you too? Did he even remember you?

It just seems like no matter how hard you try, he managed to reappear. Maybe partly because both of you are idols. When the both of you dated, everything seems fine. You thought that the fans would understand. When the news came out that the both of you are dating, the Netizens and fans were in an uproar.

You received threatening notes from his "beloved fans". They were absolutely jealous. They said that you weren't right for him. Not good enough, they said. But what do they really know of Jaemin when they only received information by the internet? Aren't idols humans too? With a busy schedule, the possibility of bumping into each other was 50/50. Which made things even harder for you.

I mean, a year nearly passed by after the both of you broke up. You couldn't understand why you are not over him yet. You fell too deep. You thought you are finally free from the thoughts of him. His voice, his smile, his touch... You just need to forget!

Suddenly, the doorbell rang. Hurriedly, you hid the photo album back to where it belongs at your secret place. You looked through the doorhole(?) and saw a smiling Mark.

Sighing in relief, you unlocked the door and he came in.

"The security guard told me to give you this. It was a gift from your fan! "

He handed you a parcel which you shook lightly to guess what's inside it. You feel happier after getting it but putting it aside as it would be rude to open it now when you have a guest in your house. Yes, you are one of the idols that live alone. It may get quiet sometimes but it's worthy.

"Do you want anything? " You said as you headed for the kitchen to get him a drink.

"Anything is fine, (your nickname), " He said as he switched the television on.

After getting him a drink, you sat down next to him. wanting to know the reason why he came to your house without any warning.

"Is there anything wrong? " You finally said.

Mark who was watching the News intensely stopped, looked down to the ground uncomfortably then to you. You know by this that nothing is right.

"Mark, spill it. "

There was a short silence.

"Okay, okay, fine. You got me. I came here because... " He hesitated.

You waited, anxiously. What happened till he had to come to you personally?

"Well, I-" The both of you are interrupted by the News.

"It seemed that it is confirmed that Jaemin and (randomgirlname) is dating. After getting caught by his fans after they found his Instagram account posted a couple look of them wearing a mask with the caption 143 which means 'I love you'. He accidentally posted it but soon realised and deleted it after. However, they caught up fast and Jaemin confessed that he have been dating (randomgirlname) for a while now. The fans are extremely supportive of this and I wish the two of them to last long. Back to the report-"

You couldn't hear anymore than that. You felt like a meteor had hit you in the head, you are in deep shock. You knew that you had random thoughts whether he had one but never realised how painful it really is to find him loving someone else.

"Y-y/n? " Mark whispered slowly, broken by the sight of you.

Is it supposed to be this painful? You swear you could feel your heart breaking and your energy drained, the color flushed out from you. All the memories you wished so hard to forget came rushing back to you like a kaleidoscope. It hurts you. It burns you. It kills you so hard, you stayed frozen in your seat. Had you always loved him this much?

You had not realised Mark had gotten up to suspect the gift he received from the security guard. He had been suspicious of it ever since it had been handed to him. The way it was decorated looked oh-so-familiar to him. Too familiar. Like someone he knew had bought it before recently.

It can't be him right? It must be a coincidence! Looking at you breaking apart hurts him so much that he wants to kill Jaemin. But still.. He rattled the parcel and a note slid through. Cautiously, he picked it up and shocked ran through him like a wave as he red it.

"Y/n, you should open this, " Mark said as you took the parcel again. He looked serious and you couldn't helped it.

Dear (y/n),

Hello. How have you been? This will be my last gift to you. I was the one that has been giving you gifts even after we broke up. Honestly, I still had some feelings for you and it seemed like you have been avoiding me. I know that you've been enjoying my gifts tho! After all, I know what you like the most! Remember the necklace you said you wanted? The one with butterflies? You'll love it. I bought you something else too. Please don't throw it away.

Ps I met this girl and she made me feel so happy and special. You might heard it by now. I really do love her. I hope you can support us and I'm waiting for you to find your right one!

Yours Truly,
Jaemin.

"Wow.. " Your voice cracked even though you whispered it out.

"I.. I.. never thought that.. wow, " You said again, in disbelief. Mark looked at you, worried.

Finally, the tears you had been holding back since the news of the break up flew down your cheeks. Crying has always been a weakness to you and you never want another person to see you cry as you felt vulnerable. You hate it. You hate him. You hate him so much to make you feel like this. How can he do this?! Your hands flew to your face to wipe away the tears away. You can't seem to stop crying.

Suddenly, warmth hands covered you, soothing you. Making you feel as if everything is alright.. as if everything will be better. But will it be alright? You doubt yourself.

"There, there, y/n... I.. am so sorry. I'm here for you now. Please don't hold back, cry your heart out, " His sweet voice calmed you down which made you cry even more as you cried your heart out. Crying the pain and pleasure out from the relationship you and Jaemin had shared. The one you kept so close. So dear to you. That you can't even be able to reach.

After what seemed like an hour of you sobbing onto Mark's now wet shoulder, he pulled your chin up to make you look at him. He wiped the rest of your tears off your face. He was being so careful that he looks cute.

"Mark, " You said softly, tired from all the crying.

"Yes, y/n? " He said caringly.

"I'm happy now, " You smiled slowly at him. He was taken by surprised and pulled you in for an embrace, feeling glad.

A/N: So, how was it? I hope it's not a bit tad confusing and I hope you enjoyed it! Please do vote and comment xD