This had to be the most difficult thing I have ever done. I haven't talked to him in so long. I haven't even said his name since the fight. Everyday the fight runs through my head
. "Lou you said you loved me, but ever since word got out about us being together you just stopped and aren't the same anymore. You said no matter what happens we would be together.And you weren't embarrassed about being with me and that you don't care that we are a couple. THAT WAS ALL A LIE!!!!". "No Harry its not like that...." You know what , I don't want to hear your excuses, just leave. "Harry no I..." "No Lou get out!!!!!".
That was the last thing he said to me. Today I decided to go check on him. I need to see him, I need to see his brown curly locks that fall so perfectly on his face. I need to see his just perfectly pink lips, oh I miss the taste of him.
I finally get to his apartment and I stand outside the door. Thinking of all the possibilities. Maybe he moved on, maybe he is in as much pain as me. I cant just stand here, so I knock on the door. But there is no answer just silence. I know he is home his car i there. So i call him, I hear his cell ring inside the apartment. That is when I start to freak out. He never leaves his cell at home. I knock like a mad man and there is still no answer my heart drops when I hear cries of pain in his apartment. I know that its him. I decide to kick the door in. As soon as the door is down I look everywhere.The house is silent. No more cries. I finally make it to his bedroom and the door is open a crack and its dark. My feet wont move, I want to go in but something is keeping me from moving. I call his name out. "Harry". No answer.
I get up the strength to ,move, and I walk in an turn on the light to find my only true love lying on the floor in a pool of blood, and pill bottles everywhere. I run straight over to him and take his body in my arms. I look to see where the blood iss coming from and the trail leads back to his arm where I see hundreds of cuts up and down his arms. I look around to see that there are pills scattered on the floor and most of the bottles are empty.
I sit there with him in my arms and I break down crying, the one and only love I have ever had was dead. I pull out my phone and Dial 999. And wait for them to get here. I put him down. I get up and see a Note and a DVD. I take the not and look at the front. Its says "Lou Read". I listen and do as it says.
"Lou I know that you will at some point come and visit me, and by the time you get here or read this I will be dead. This DvD is for you to watch when you get to your place. Please dont be angry I made that mistake and got angery and that lead me to this. Just watch the video it will all make sense."
I am sobbing my eyes out now. I hear the medics and so I get up and they lead me out of the apartment and an officer takes me outside to question me. After I tell them everything I saw, except for the letter and the DvD, I go home to watch it.
As soon as I walk throught the door I head for the T.V. and put the DvD in and sit back on the couch. I hit play And Harry's face shows up on the screen. I start to cry, He start to talk, "Lou I havent been okay since the fight. I have been a mess I needed you. But I knew that you couldnt love me. You didnt ever want to go public and when it gt leaked we were together you stopped loving me. Thats when I lost it. Since the fight I have done nothing, I became depressed and angry. The anger was what lead to my depression. I was so mad at you for lying. Please dont be mad, I dont want you to go down the path that I did. The one thing that I have to say is that I loved you so much, and never got over you. This was the only way to get rid of the pain. I hope that you live your life better then I did. Dont stay sad go out find love and be happy, I love you Lous, Goodbye".
I lost it after that. My crying was so intense that I was yelling. I layed on the couch for hours just crying. At some point I couldnt handle the pain. I know that harry said the I shouldnt be sad but how the Hell am I supposed to not be. I dont think I could live without him anymore, I never even got to say Im sorry or goodbye. I never got to kiss im one last time, feel his warm skin against mine.
I fall asleep. But when I get up the pain hits me again of him being gone. I head to the bathroom to find my bottle of pills from my soccer accident and I open them. I pour them all into my hand and I look up "Harry I will be with you soon dont you worry". I pop all the pills into my mouth and fall to the floor and wait. A minute later I get woozy and start to go in and out of consienceness. My vision goes black....................
-You do not know how much I cried when I was writing this. I hope that you enjoy this.
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