Part of His World

Hospital Arrival

When i awoke, an unfamiliar face was looking down upon me.  He had messy black hair, and it was falling over his vivid sky blue eyes like a transparent curtain. His face was sharply sculpted and extremely defined. His skin tone was very pale.. almost porcelain like. He was handsome, but tremendously intimidating. I open my mouth to speak, but he cuts me off with his own words. 

"Ah, I'm glad to see you're alright. Welcome back. You fainted at the scene and i caught you before you hit the ground and hurt yourself. My name is Gabriel and I'm a volunteer at the nearby hospital. Let me help you up." He says all of this casually, his voice smooth and deep. All i can do is nod, still very out of it and now even more overwhelmed than before. He offers out his hand, which i hesitantly accept and he helps me sit up. At first, my head swarms with dizziness and nausea but i quickly shake out of it and take in my surroundings.  Im sitting on a hospital bed, in a small area with seating on either side of me. There are machines around me, and two vehicle seats behind the head of the bed. I put two and two together to conclude im in a ambulance.. but we arent moving. I look back over at Gabriel, who's watching me curiously. 

"Uhm, my....," but i trail off. Tears well in my eyes as the images of my father's accident fill my mind. I look down as the tears begin sliding down my cheeks. I pull my hoodie sleeves down over my hands, sniffling, and begin to make a futile effort to wipe away and stop the flow of tears. Through the blur of my tears i see Gabriel offering me a box of tissues. I gladly accept them and begin to take deep breaths to try and calm myself down. After i finally regain my composure, i try again. 

"How long was i unconscious?" i quietly ask, looking down at my hands. 

"Not very long, around two minutes. I'm assuming you're concerned, confused, and overwhelmed right now. If you're feeling up to it, I can guide you to your father?" he asks, almost sounding concerned. At the mention of my father, my head shoots up and i finally meet his eyes again, giving him a nod. He stands, having to slouch a little due to his height. I slowly follow behind him, walking out of the ambulance and back into the nightmare of the accident. I refrain from looking at the car itself, and continue to follow Gabriel as we head towards another ambulance. Once we reach it, he turns and looks at me. 

"Alexis is in there with him right now. Would you like me to give you some privacy?" he questions me, watching as I stare at the doors. I give him a small nod, and he opens up the doors to the ambulance. I step in, the doors closing behind me. I look over at Lex, who has her head in her hands, elbows on her knees, silently crying. I keep tunnel vision on her and seat myself next to her, laying my hand on her back. She slowly looks up at me and i give her a nod, moving my hand from her back. She squeezes my hand and i take a deep breath before finally looking over to see my father. He was hooked up to every machine in sight, his skin pale and covered in cuts and bruises. Even though he was unconscious, i could see the pain in his face. A sob that i wasnt aware that i was repressing escaped through my lips. I couldnt stand to see him like this. I needed to go. I give him a quick kiss on the forehead, apologize to Lex, and then rush out of the ambulance. I kneel on the ground, sobs shaking my body. I hear footsteps approach me a few moments later, and then feel a large hand rest on my back. I look up to see Gabriel crouched next to me, concern written all over his face and full in his eyes. 

"We have to transfer your dad to the hospital now. You have the option of riding in the ambulance or you can drive there. What would you like to do?" 

I sigh, sniffling as i run my fingers through my disheveled hair, trying to think of the best option. Switching between the two, I come to an obvious realization.

"Honestly, i cant bear to sit in the ambulance and stare at him in such a horrific state.. yet at the same time i dont think im in a good position to drive." i state, being completely honest. I shake my head in my hands, on the verge of another breakdown. 

"Well, I can drive you to the hospital if you'd like. That way you wont have to ride in the ambulance, but you also dont have to drive there. It's all up to you." he responds, and i take a moment to consider this before nodding. 

"Yeah, thats probably the best option right now. Are you sure you're okay with that though?" As i ask this, i feel guilt in the pit of my stomach. I feel bad for not being able to handle riding in the ambulance, but also for the thought of burdening Gabriel. He answers, and as if he could read my mind, he addresses my guilt.

"I'm one hundred percent sure. Your safety is of my top most concern. Also, Alexis has chosen to ride with your father so he will not be by himself. We will arrive at the hospital at the same time as well so you'll be able to walk alongside him as they roll him to ICU." His words make me feel slightly better, so i give a small nod and slowly stand. 

"Alright.. thank you. That makes me feel a little better.." I let out a shaky breath and follow after Gabriel to his vehicle. When we approach it, he politely opens the door for me and i slide into the passenger seat, my mind racing. I hardly even notice him slide into the seat next to me and start the car. I keep my eyes fixated out my window, and after what felt like hours, we reach the hospital. Gabriel hadnt even turned the car off and i was already racing to the parked ambulance. I reach it just as they start racing him into the ER. Lex was on his right side, and i joined her on his left. Tears began subconsciously falling again, but i didnt care to wipe them away. We finally reach a room, and i watch as they hook him up to every machine in sight. I felt like i was watching my life through someone else's eyes all over again. Doctors came and went for hours, but no good news ever came. Hours passed by like years. Nothing else mattered besides him. Nothing else existed. Lex had to leave after two hours. Five hours have passed since she left. Life support was the only thing keeping his heart beating. I refuse to leave his side in case anything happens. I havent eaten or drank anything since i arrived. One of the nurses brought me a blanket and a water bottle. I try to get comfortable in the chair but theres no use.. yet somehow i end up falling asleep anyways.

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Hey guys. Sorry it took me so long to update.. i just havent been able to find the motivation. I hate how this chapter turned out, but oh well.. at least i forced my way through. Honestly i hate my writing, it just turns out horrible in my head. Its probably why i dont update as often as i should. Anyways, hope you enjoy. I'm sorry its so dark and slow right now, but i promise its going to pick up. These events are just important for later on. See you in the next chapter :)