A simple letter about letting go. (teaser)
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3 HOURS TO GO: My Last Hope
"I LOVE YOU GOODBYE!!", those words could be my last words to say for this last chance of waiting.
Three hours before my birthday I feel so excited and at the same time so nervous on what will happen. I was so confuse on what I feel 'coz this is my very last hope, A hope that could be a start of a new beginning or could be the ending of this untold feelings.
Before I come up on this situation I was so confuse and at the same time curious on what he really feels for me, if he really loves me or I'm just too assuming even though from the start its nothing. That confuse feeling stock her in my mind and my heart for almost 4 years.
6:31pm that was the exact time when he told to me about his feelings for me, though I already knew it but still I was so shock when he said that he like me. No words can explain the happiness I feel that time, all I know is that he put a big smile on my face and inside my heart. When he said that he like me I also want to say that I like him too but instead I ask him why he chooses to like me. But instead of answering that question he say sorry for liking me, I don't know why maybe because he know what was my priority that time and he don't want to hinder me. Though I was so down but still I want to thank him for considering my situation and for not bothering me. Maybe I was not ready that time to handle any relationship but I know that the right time will came and I hope that he is still there waiting for me.
From being curious to being confuse, now it’s been a long time since then but still the confuse feelings bother me and I'm curious on what he feels right now. Maybe this could be my last hope but still I want to try and face the truth, the fact that could hurt me or could still give me more hope. Tomorrow is my birthday and one of the things that I want to know on my big day is to prove if he still remembers me. One week before my birthday I hide my birthdate on my Facebook account to verify if he still remembers my birthday even though no one notifies him. And now it’s only 3 hours left to face the truth, I feel so nervous maybe because this could be my very last hope. Tik tak tik tak tik tak, ting!!!12:00am in the morning, boom!!! no one greet me:( but still I'm hoping that he will greet me because he still has 12 hours to make me smile.
After a very busy day now it’s already 9pm in the evening, I eagerly checked my facebook account but still no greeting from him.:-( 3 hours to go and I think I need to move on. Tik tak tik tak tik tak, ting!!!11:59 PM one minute before my birthday ends, though seems like everything will turn to nothing but still there is a space in my heart that is quietly hoping for his message. 5,4,3,2,1 ting!! A simple HBD every year from him since I know him makes me smile and now this could be the ending of hoping that he still care for me, because as I expected he didn't remember my birthday and I think this is the sign for me to move on.
Four years of being confuse and curious, and I think right now I know the answer. Two weeks after my birthday I found out that he already has a girlfriend and seeing those smile in their faces they seems like a very happy couple. Knowing that he is happy with her makes me smile somehow, but deep inside it really hurt a lot and seeing those pictures bring tears to my eyes. Though it hurts but just like what I said to him before "If you really love someone and she doesn't like you let her go", because loving someone is not about being happy as you are its about seeing him/her to be happy as you want them to be. And I think that is what will I do, to officially let him go.
I LOVE YOU GOODBYE!!........................................
