I'm not sure when it came, or when it's leaving. I feel it all the time. Creeping around my skin. Chills up my spine, goosebumps all over. I wonder why it came to me, does everyone have it. It makes me do stupid things.
It won't allow me to do certain things. It makes me terrified of people. I can't talk to people, in front of people. I keep all my thoughts, opinions, all my words in my head. Maybe that's why my head is such a bad place. It holds all the things I've wanted to say, all the things I've wanted to argue against, but it wouldn't let me. Now I'm stuck with all these annoying voices in my head.
"Not good enough"
"Ugly"
"Fat"
"Alone"
"Stupid"
"Ignorant"
When will the list end! All these things told to me, daily.
I want someone. Someone to be crazy for me. To tell me they are all lies. I want her. I want him. I want someone to love me unconditionally. I don't want to feel so alone anymore. But it wont allow me to go after her. After him. I want someone who won't let me go, someone crazy for me all the time. Someone to hold me close.Someone to love me, someone to get it to leave me alone.
