Scars Of A Women

First Time

I'm Carma I'm black and Indian I'm 16 and these are my scars......

Jan 5,2011 I was raped.......But let's take it back to the day before.
It was a typical morning of bullshit that I didn't wanna deal with ,but had to .My mama had blood all over the fucking bathroom z  and her man friends dick in her mouth in the other room Stupid Bitch can't keep her legs closed for shit. I went in the kitchen and took a sink bath that morning so I could go to shitty ass Rottweils High. I HATE that damn school, full of sluttybitches and hoe ass dudes..

I went to my room and put on my little pink dress and my sandals and left out the house got picked up down the street by my boyfriend Jesse. Jesse don't come to the house because my mom such a slut she tried to fuck him once so he don't like to come by. My mom's a prostitute and her dad's a pastor how the fuck did that happen right? Well to make a long story short her dad tried to turn a high sidity hoe into a house wife stupid fuck.

But anyway Jesse picked me up he had glaze donuts from Krispy Cream I love those..

Carma:baby you ain't have to buy no donuts just because I said I wanted some

Dre:I know , but I did

Carma:awwww baby your sweet

Dre: only for you

We pulled off and I started eating the donuts he cut the radio up and we hit the highway I know what your thinking what school she go to that they gotta get on the highway well None it's senior ditch day so we're gonna head to florida for the weekend I'm excited ready to turn up all over him .

Dre: How's   my little baby doing in their

Carma :She's fine daddy

I'm pregnant I forgot to mention............

Dre:Good good can't wait to find out what it is

Carma:Me niether

Dre:thats good you bet not be giving none to no one else I mean it

Carma:I'm not I promise

We arrived to the first stop at 11:43 that night I unfortunately  had fell asleep on the way so Jesse carried me inside and went down to get some ice or at least he told me when he woke up ...Later that night Dre came into the room he was high.. I hate It when he's high

Dre:get up

He grabbed me and pulled me down to the bottom or the bed
Start ripping my clothes off I wasn't in the mood so I moved back and I told him no,but he kept going he went down and gave me head so gracefully it felt so good to me.but I kept resisting it for some reason I just wasn't feeling  it. I tried to get up and he slammed me down on the bed and told me to shut the  fuck up and take what was rightfully  mine since I didn't  have a problem taking it my first 5 months ago I start tearing up my emotions where everywhere my head was spinning I was fighting,but I couldn't resist him any longer.So I gave in and let him have it but 10mins in I felt extra tragic he wasn't stopping like he normally does he was pulling my hair scratching my sides like he was really  making love so he said in my ear

Dre:omg baby don't stop coming on my dick
Carma: Dre please stop you hurting me you know it can't fit 

He pulled me in close holding me while he was standing up and he said to me "you gotta  take this big dick no matter how bad it hurt or I'll leave for a female who can and send my money every month". I love him with all my heart so I couldn't make him stop,but it was just to big and I was trying Hella hard to hold on.
He was holding my waist so tight I could feel his fingers on my hip bone at that moment I knew it was time I came all over but he still wouldn't stop I had been holding it in allowing myself to dry up hoping he would stop from a rough feel...........

Dre:you love me.

Carma:Yes daddy I love you

Dre:wraps your arms around me , stop being scared it won't hurt much longer your just tight ...................

..................................To Be Continued