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and they ask..

So I recently did something really stupid
On darlinqqs stream
I mean it was an accident but now she hates me
But oh well
So when I say I love you guys I really mean it
The reason why this
I have had a really old close follower of mine just called wattpad artists stupid
Now the funny thing is that he was talking about the ones who "are popular" and have over 1000+ followers
And he was complaining how thanks to their art they got there and without it they wouldn't have
He was basically saying that wattpad is a place where ppl post books and writing not art
(I won't be mentioning or tagging about this since I don't want to cause a huge problem about this)
And it just broke me
I started to think that its true
All I ever post is drawings and that is where I got to where I am
But that doesn't mean I'll stop uploading
I draw FOR fun
I draw FOR entertainment
Not for "fame" or followers
I regret uploading my drawings
Ever since I started I wanted to see where I'll go but now here
I regret even joining wattpad
I've made ppl crazy and probably be excited by just a simple follow or respond
I do not like that
IRL I like to hang out in a small group
4-7 not much but I freak out when it gets out of hand and I can't control my anxiety
There is many reasons why I hate having followers
No I do not personally hate the ppl who follow me
I just hate the fact that people think I'm worth something
And when you new guys react to a reply just upsets me
The good thing is
Well,thanks to you guys you have been helping me with daily problems and got me out of depression and suicide
You guys worry about me and care
Ah and those gifts you made me
I love them because they make me feel important
On deviantart I posted day eight of goretober and explained why it was rushed due to shooting and smoke
And here's what I got on that piece

;w;
I love them
And I posted this on insta
Cause it seemed fun

And i got this

;W;
The one that says sorry its because she reread it and unliked it
XD
I have 2 likes on that bit that's from IRL friends and we always say I hate you or fak you back to each other
What I'm trying to say is I love you all so much
For those who are expecting an art trade of mine
I got a bit side tracked and I recently got sick
X'D
I'm so stupid
I've recently drawn on my computer because I was watching a live stream and wanted to draw and all the sketches are on my phone so I still haven't finished

XxCharliexX09

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I had so much fun with you guys today
XD
Go give em a follow to my best two guy friends
Also.........

Me:wait in fact,what is your real name?
Charlie:hey,your right
*both stare at ezaf*
Ezaf:Wait-WHAT?!YOU GUYS DONT KNOW MY NAME?!?
YOU HAVEE KNOWN ME FOR NINE YEARS AND YOU DONT KNOW MY NAME
WOW JUST WOW
Charlie:I never knew you had a name!
Me:I forget things easily so.....
Everyone:........
Ezaf:My name is Andrew......
Charlie&Me:YOUR NAME IS ANDREW!?!?!!

Hope you guys don't mind sharing our convo we had a week ago
XD
Well
Time to watch movies
Buhbye