She was happy and content, had her own morals and sense of adventure. She thought kindly of others until her Pa died of cancer. She sat in her room wondering why she couldn't shed a single tear. She didn't understand, she was scared she didn't care.
A few months later death screwed her over once more, she lost a woman she loved and adored. Truth is she did care and soon began to show it. She cried in the shower though, so no-one could see it.
Eventually after everything, she regained her stance remembering her Pa once say "Get up, go get them, give yourself a chance." She thought about them from time to time, wondered if they were watching and when to draw the line.
Many more troubles came for she didn't have it easy, she coped and got through it, she wasn't giving up this quickly. She thought she could help everyone, thought she had all the answers. The burdens got to much, under the weight of it all, her precious little heart got crushed.
She thought she had contained all the teenage bullshit, she missed her old life and didn't need it. Something else happen that changed her forever, an emotionless being, self absorbed and a liar. She thought she could trust him for he had promised to love her but when she went away and came back he was with another.
She now empty and broken but not forgotten, she feels numb and heartless but brutally honest. He's purely ambivalent and a loutish hypocrite. Broke her innocent heart, a few months more and she would have been sick of it.
Turned a blind eye to her faith and everyone that cared. Didn't leave her room just sat there and stared. She thought she knew someone but realized he was a fake, same with most of her friends she called "mates."
She knows now there are two types of pain, one is hurt and the other is gain. She faces a challenge of letting everything go, turn back to God and follow what she knows.
Shes no longer a sad soul and has experience, shes not ambivalent, loutish or a hypocrite. Shes very abstract and hard to read but shes working on that and how to succeed.
She's independent and understands majority of things, one of which is we are all human beings. None of us are made perfect and full of many flaws but what you choose to do with your life will determine your entry through a door. A door of pain or gain, its freedom of choice, to walk through a frame and have a voice.
She hopes her life will lead to most success, she cant predict the future but will try her best. If that not enough, she wont know what to do. she wont give up, keep fighting, she doesn't like to lose.
Eventually after all this pain she will regain her stance, her Pa will say one last time "Take this chance."
