Confessions

Zoe

To Zoe, a friend.

I was jealous. I'm not going to lie to you. I was jealous. I couldn't help myself. Everything was going for you. Me? Nothing was going for me. I know that doesn't give me a valid excuse but quite frankly that is the best excuse I have.

I hope you don't hate me still. I really would take any second to be with you to tell you how sorry I am about everything, everything I have done to you.

I didn't hate you, I just wanted everything you had. You had the perfect family and friends, everything you had I had always wanted. My family didn't care for me, they cared for you more than me. They wished that you were in my family and that I was out.

I think you didn't notice that though, I don't think you have ever noticed it. I did though. I am ashamed, I wasn't smart enough to notice that I shouldn't have cared about you or anybody else, I should have cared about my education so that I could have a good career, leave everybody behind.

I didn't like the idea of not being notice, never was I showered in attention, so, that was what I craved.

So I'm sorry. I'm sorry that I let jealousy get in the way. I'm sorry that I hurt you. Forgive me please, that is the only thing I ask.