Life

day 7

It sucks when your are a really big part of someone's life and their a big part of yours and then it's over. Then it sucks even more when they find someone new. I find there's more stages to grief, normally you got denial, anger, bargaining, depression and acceptance. I want to add suffering, it's a very small thing but it hurts like a mother fucker. Like when that person seems to never put in any effort to even talk to you. When you try to talk to her she never responds, I guess she just doesn't care how that makes me feel, I mean it's my fault in the end I did it to myself. I don't know what I expected, cause now all I think is why I fucking did it. But everyone says oh it's done you can't live in the past. Well ik it sounds pathetic and stupid but I can't live without her. She'll never know how much she means to me. I'll never be able to say I do. Or hold her hand as she deliveries the three beautiful children we always talked about. I wish ik how she moved on so fast how she fell in love wit someone else so fast. I'm glad she's happy I just wish I could find peace. Sigh 3 more months I guess. And the really shitty part is she'll never read this and if she does she probably doesn't care enough about me to message me about it...