Here We Go Again

I'm Alexia, but I like to get called Lexi for short. I'm 17 years old, and live in Kent in the England, it's not the best place to live, but it will do until I'm old enough to leave.

My world is falling, crumbling apart, life is meaningless & that's just the start

My hearts so sore, I can feel it breaking & I swear to god it leaves me shaking

Late at night till early in the morning, lying in bed eyes wide open. Didn't sleep last night, like all the others, instead I just lie crying in the covers

Quick, wipe away all the tears before they come near. must hide the feelings of fear

For all they know I'm happy & always smiling, but deep inside my soul is dying

I can feel it rotting, it wants to scream, but I won't let it... not for the time being

I can never tell them how I feel cause the happiness I wear to them is real

For them to hear that I wish I was dead... it would kill them, they'd be filled with dread

So I'll try my best no to be selfish, I'll keep my secret hidden & just let them rest

but god I can't take it much longer...

I miss my mum so much, every time I close my eyes, she's there, smiling at me.

It comforts me, but I hate it. I just want her here with me.

Why did she have to die so young?

Why couldn't it have been me that died in the crash?

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A/N: Hiii I hope you like my story..i will be posting the first chapter soon

Ellie x