Here We Go Again

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Seeing Alexia cry is the worst thing. She's so vulnerable, it's horrible seeing her cry. I don't know why I'm so horrid to her I always regret it and then do it the next day. She just winds me up with her stupid smartness and everything always needing to perfect.

Alexia was stood there shyly looking away, tears streaming down her face, not saying anything and avoiding my eye contact. I didn't say anything, I just walked up, and took her in for a big hug, my hands gently rubbing circles in her back, trying to comfort her.

"Here, follow me, I know somewhere we can go" I calmly said to her, taking her hand and leading the way to the art room, no one ever comes in here at lunch.

"Niall, I don't know what to do, no one understands me, even Kiera doesn't understand, I'm such a-" I cut her off knowing what her next words will be.

"No, listen, don't say it. I can't even begin to understand how you feel, but I can try. If you're ready to tell me, you can ok? I'm trying to be nice here, just let me help you." I wiped the tears off her cheek and smiled at her for comfort.

"I know I'm going to regret telling you this Niall..I don't even know why I am.. I just need to let it out to someone.." She paused, as she leaned over to grab a tissue. "So.. 5 months ago, me and my mum was in the car on our way to go shopping, we was so happy and excited, then suddenly the car started spinning, and my mum was screaming. She couldn't control the car, it all happened too quickly, I can't even remember how it happened..the last time I saw her face, it was her being petrified and she had tears pouring out of her eyes. The car had gone into the bar at the side of the road, and the bar had gone right into my mums stomach. It was heartbreaking, seeing the most important person in the world screaming and crying with fright. I will always remember her telling me to be safe, and stay away from my dad. She was always there for me Niall, now I have no one. Every time I close my eyes, I see her face, screaming for help, taunting me. She was too young Niall. I just I'm sorry I can't do this anymore, can we please change the subject?" Alexia's voice had cracked and she had just jumped on and clung to me, her face buried in my chest, causing my shirt to be all wet.

I don't know what to do, I never ever thought this had happened to her. She always looked so brave and happy, and yet here she is, pouring her emotions out to me, crying a waterfall.

Why didn't anyone notice this had happened? How could she just carry on after loosing her mum like this?

"Lexi, I'm so sorry, I never knew this had happened, just remember heaven only takes the best people. Your mum would be so proud of you." I whispered in her ear.

All this time she was dealing with this, I was being a dick to her, just because I thought it would make me look 'cool' in front of my friends.

If I could take back the nasty comments I made to her, then I would in a heart beat. But I can't..and I just can't stop saying them. All the stupid things I say, I don't even mean most of the time...I just know it hurts her.

"Thank you so much Niall, but all I can ever think is that it's my fault. I'm the one who wanted to go shopping in the first place. It should have been me that died. Not my mum." She sobbed into my chest repeatedly, before realising what she's done, and instantly pulling away.

I wish I could do something to help, but I know I will just mess it up, and before I know what I'm doing, I nod my head, and walk out. Leaving her crying in the art room.

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