Lost Soul

Start: Kiss

My eyes widened, my mind's telling me to push him hard and rip off his dick but my heart says 'don't you like it?'

What in hell is happening to me?! He's currently kissing every corner of my lips as I froze here with 'what's happening' thought in my head. I'm trying to calm myself to have a better plan on how can I rid this guy.

When he's busy tasting my lips, I crouched down and hit the censored thing hidden in the crotch of his pants by my knees. I heard him squeaked, the one with annoyance and aggro and now his body's prostrated on the floor while whimpering, huh! Maybe that kiss is so damn hot but sorry, i'm not that obsessed to be kissed by him.

" You little! Why did you do that? Fuck!" He yelp as he cried in pain. He tried to get up so I kicked him hard to make him laid again in the cold ground, he glared at me and with that I can see that he's burning in anger. This is not my fault at the very first place so don't he dare stare that way!

He lowered his head and faced the icy ground, he's trying to compose himself by taking deep breaths and deep sighs, but he just failed.

He  got up and look intently to my eyes, his grayish eyes are now covered by vexation, and it makes me scared!

He looked at me like he's piercing my body with a sharp metal really different to his silly stares minutes ago .He walked closer and closer until he corners me. I'm doomed now! Well, Im a ghost by the way so dying is not my thing anymore.

He grabbed my wrist and pushed me so hard, I heard the loud sound my body's impact had made, it hurts!

"ARE YOU TRYING TO MESS UP WITH ME!?" he shouted through my visage, his voice echoed in the dark room, silence. Silence's killing me.

I looked away from his gaze and lowered my head, I saw his trembling hands and I felt some sort of guilt. But it's his fault so I don't need to be guilty.

But the hell with me, my eyes are burning and any minute tears will stream down on it so I tried to composed myself to refrain from crying

"ANSWER ME!" He yelp. And that's it, tears are now touching my face.

I covered my face by my palm, I am scared and I can't stop myself from crying, I bit my lower lip to ease the burden in me but I can't, such a cry baby!

I just keep on bawling until a soft touch laid on my shoulder trying to calm it down by moving, that gentle touch that makes me shiver. His hands are cold as ice, oh well I forgot he's a ghost.

Then a soft voice whispered through my ears.

"I'm sorry If I scared you. I'm sorry"

He has sweet voice that can  melt everyone's heart, the ideal voice that every girls dreamed of and I think I'm one of those lucky girls, what the heck! Am I fantasizing him? I'm out of my mind now!

A warm hug ruined my fantasy, he locked me in his arms while burying his face on my neck, pushing him is not a good idea right now, I think I lost my strength even though I want to punch his face yet I can't, I hate it! This hug brought me back to life. Well, not literally, I'm a ghost, remember?

"Young lady" he whispered.

I kept my mouth shut not minding his words.

"Your smell stinks" then he faced me with his smirking face.

WHAT THE HELL!!!

I remained shocked as he's laughing out loud, fuck him to death!

I pushed him so hard and decided to get my way out

But before I take a step, a soft embrace laid on my body. What now again!

"I'm just kidding Steff, I'm sorry" His soft voice echoed in my head but a word caught my attention.

Steff

Steff

Steff

That's my name right? Shocked overrun me,

How did he know that?!

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"That's my name right, how did you know that?!" I pushed him hard for me to face his jittery visage, who are you?

"Answer me!" I hissed.

He lowered his head and now he's facing the icy ground. I know there's something with this guy. I walked closer to him trying to find answers that'll complete my puzzle, the puzzle that I'm longing for.

He lifted his head and starred, and by his stares I know there's something in it.

"Who are you?" I looked furiously to his eyes, his awful eyes full of queries and secrets seems like he's trying to keep something.

"FUCKSHIT" I muttered. It's really frustrating not hearing any words. Why he's trying to hid something from me, what's his purpose then?

Time by time, confusion weighs in. It's giving me desire to know him better, I want to know every part of him.

Minutes had passed still his attention nailed on the floor. I gave up, I don't think he'll unfolds everything.

I decided to take a short time to relaxed.I need fresh air to breath, the more I stayed here the more my heart's burden weigh in.

I starred at the city lights perfectly landed on my lifeless eyes. I can feel the warm air embracing me and it's breeze that giving me goosebumps. This is life, but someone took it away  from me.

Why life seems so hard? Why it keep on giving us hindrances that we can't withstand? As I tried to seek for answers the more I made bruises. As I tried to find treasures the more I get snakebite. Maybe it's God's will for me, and I can't do anything about it.

When I'm busy tasting the warmth air, someone took my wrist forcedly. I know it's him, he's the one only who knew that I'm existing by the way. His grip is so tight that causing my arm to soar. I tried to pull away to his grip yet I can't, he's so strong. Shit!

We strode to the dark room from where I saw my defunct body, when we finally got there my eyes widened automatically. Where's my body?

He hurriedly sat on the coach and put his hand to his head massaging it. He seems stressed and pre occupied. Is it my fault?

I felt some sort of guilt, but the freakin hell! Don't blame yourself, your just asking by the way!

But my conscience contradicts me.I hurriedly sat beside him and placed my arms over his shoulders. I feel sorry about myself, such a good citizen.

I heard him sigh, the deep one. Is that really hard for him?

"It's okay if you won't tell me your reasons" even though it's hard, I need to wait. Patience is my sword for now, I hope so. It took a couple of minutes until he spoke.

"I'm your boyfriend"

I stiffened.  How come?

"What did you say?" I asked with trembling voice, how can this be?! he shook his head feel sorry about everything.

"And I'm sorry, I'm sorry" confusion hits me, why is he saying those words? I dont know how and why but I felt a pinch in me. Mixed emotions overrun me; sadness, anxiety, guilt and fear. But why?

I heard him whimp, i quickly hugged him and caressed his back. He suddenly lift his head and I can see now his tears with sadness plastered on his face.

I moved closer to him and pat his back, this is what all I can for now, I need to calm him for me to have answers. While waiting for his  response, he stood up and starred.

"I'm the one who kill you, sorry"