Polly

Polly,

Well. You are and were the best and worst thing that ever happened to me.

When you left me I couldn't find a single flaw in you. You used to cuddle me at night, tell me when you were tired, you kept me safe. You were everything I ever wanted and needed. You would listen to me when I needed it and I would listen to you. You helped me through those bullies. You were the reason I wanted to come home and the reason I wanted to carry on. Since you've gone, I have found one flaw out of those many perfections. You're only flaw was living because to live means to also die. Polly, not only did you die but I have too. My mind is filled with memories of us and I cant take them off repeat. So, every night I lay in bed and whisper hoping god will hear me and kill me too. The only injustice you have done is the cancer, not in your lungs but your intestines.

This life i'm living isn't really a life, i'm just existing. Please come back for me, my baby <3 

I'm sat here home alone writing this in hopes you will see it, the truth is I know you wont see this and that pains me.