At Least (One Shot)

I'm just a regular girl. Not the studious type but still smart enough to have the confidence in going to school and face those intelligent people who has nothing to do but read educational books.

The typical thing, I was not really known by people before because though I'm confident, I was really UGLY! But then everything has changed when I decided to finally change. Change for the better of course.

That was when they started to notice me, it felt good though. But I still kept my feet stuck on the ground. Don't need to be all big head for all the praises.

And because of my sudden change, Andrew, the guy I was only liking from afar noticed me. HE FREAKING NOTICED ME! That was like, a dream come true! Never had I imagined he would see me the way I see him. But then he did and I felt like floating.

We started to be friends first. We don't want to rush things because we want "us" to be slowly but surely.  For how many months we always try to see each other as much as we can. Our busy schedules were not really a problem. We always find a way.

And then there's this time where I was on the peak of my emotion and I finally decided to cross the line and make us official. He looked shocked when I told him about my thoughts but still he said, "of course, we sure can be official baby," followed by his awkward smile. I never minded the smile. I was just so happy we were finally a couple!

Weeks passed by and we still tried to be in touch and go out once in awhile despite how busy we were. I was really happy and so much inlove with him. So much that I even skipped school to surprise him during his birthday. Broke my promise with my friends that I'd go swiming with them on our free day. Had my phone off when I'm with him coz my mom's calling me endlessly. I did things I shoudn't have done because I loved him.

On my birthday, I wanted to surprise him by showing up to his school and give him my home baked chocolate cake and celebrate my special day with him. Of course I didn't call him, it was a surprise.

On my way to his room I overheard two people talking. I didn't want to eavesdrop but then one of the voices seemed to be so familiar. And so I walked closer and was troubled when I saw him there seating on a car with a girl wrapped in his arms. I stayed still and forced myself quiet and listened.

"Happy anniversary baby. I love you so much," the girl said while looking at him and smiling.

"I love you more than words can ever say. I cannot even measure it baby. A year with you in this wonderful relationship is the best thing that's ever happened to me. And I'm praying of a thousand more years with you." he said those words with so much emotion that I didn't notice the tears streaming down my face.

I turned my back and walked away while tearing up so bad I can't see where I was heading. I bumped into someone.

"Sorry.."

"Ciara? What happened? Why are you crying?" I looked up and found JC, Andrew's friend, staring at me worriedly. I didn't answer, I just looked back where I saw Andrew. He followed the direction I was facing.

"Oh. I'm sorry." and then I left him standing there.

Way to go to celebrate my birthday. This is the best gift I ever had!

A week has already passed and I've been ignoring his calls and texts for also a week now. I don't care about what he'll think, I was hurt and hell, it was all his fault. But no matter how painful it gets, I still can't have myself mad at him. The love I feel for him was so strong.

I was staring blankly outside my window when I felt someone wrapping his arms around me. I didn't dare move, I just kept staring outside.

"Hey baby.." and I heard his voice. God, I missed his voice! I miss him!

"baby.." my tears started to form. It fell continuously on my face and maybe some dropped on his arms.

"Hey, why are you crying?" he made me faxe him and cupped my face with his two hands. I stared straight to his eyes and held his hands and interlaced them with mine.

"Andrew.." I said while still crying.

"Please tell me baby.."

"I already know. You don't love me,"

"Of course I love you! What are you saying?" I shook my head.

"No. Please stop it. I was there on the day of your anniversary. I heard everything. You don't love me. It's her, not me." I cried. I let go of his hands.

I saw how his face turned from worried to shocked.

"I, I'm sorry.." he said it in a whisper and couldn't look at me.

"Why?"

"Ciara, please believe me when I say I love you. I really do." he begged.

"How can you love me when you love her?"

"But.."

"Can you live without me?"

"Huh?"

"Just answer."

"It will be hard but yeah I guess I can cope."

"Can you live if she'll leave you?" I saw how he stiffened with the thought.

"Just as I thought." I said but a tear escaped my eyes.

"Ciara.."

I cupped his face with my hands and looked straight into his eyes.

"Andrew, you know how much I love you. It kills me to see you with another but I can't do anything about it. I thank you for the several months of giving me so much joy in our relationship.Thank you for making me feel special and for letting me experience how to be a girlfriend. Thank you so much for everything. I'm letting you go baby. I hope you'd be happier with her." I smiled faintly and kissed him for the last time.

He was tearing up and his eyes was full of sadness.

"Ciara, please.."

"Don't worry, I love you too much to be mad at you. I'll be fine. Don't worry." I turned my back at him. My tears kept on falling and I can't help it.

And then I felt him embracing me from behind.

"I love you, Ciara. And thank you." Then he left.

There he goes, my first love. Thanked me for letting him go. Now I'm left here, heart broken and eyes swollen. But I can still proudly say, I JUST LOVED AND I'M NOT REGRETTING ANYTHING BECAUSE THOUGH IT'S SO PAINFUL NOW, I ONCE FELT HOW WONDERFUL IT CAN BE TO LOVE AND TO BE LOVED EVEN JUST IN A SHORT WHILE.

♥iel♥