-12 am-
You: (washing your hands)
Y/m: did you tell him?
You: (look up at the mirror)
y/m: (smiling)
You: (look back)
-no one-
You: (look in the mirror)
Y/m: don't go without telling him how you feel. It'll be easier for you to move on.
-end of dream-
You: (sit up and look around)
Madison: (moves in her sleep)
You: (get out of the bed and walk out the room)
-10 minutes later-
Chres: (laying down on the air mattress)
You: (sit on the floor next to the mattress)
Chres: (looks at you) can't sleep?
You: nope.
Chres: (sits up)
You: it's funny. I thought you would be the one coming upstairs.
Chres: (looking at you) well. I just want you to live a healthy life.
You: (laugh a little and look away)
Chres: what? you didn't mean that?
You: No..I meant it. (Look at him) and I only told you because I thought saying it would give me the strength to walk away.
Chres: and?
You: (looking down at you feet)
Chres: (touches your knee)
You: (inhale then move his hand and face him) when we had sex last night. I fell for you all over again. I thought I was making love with my husband. (smile a little)
Chres: (smiles a little)
You: then you go and fight Ej. And it reminds me of all of your faults. .
Chres: (straightens his face)
You: Not only that, but you walk right back through my door and the first thing that comes to my mind is "he's home" I wanted to hug and kiss all over you. ....you see where I'm getting at Chres?
Chres: i think so.
You: (shake your head) I don't think you do Chres. I...I love you.I Love you and I hate it. Because I know I deserve better.
Chres: (looking at you)
You: (take a deep breath) And I can't wait to leave so I can hopefully find someone to take my mind off of you.
Chres: You don't have to. You can leave, get some time away from me. Let me work on making myself better for you.
You: (look at him)
