chapter 1:
sentiments of ELIZA
have you heard of the song where is the love popularized by the band black eyed piece? well my story is something like that... in the song that phrase is sang like every 5 seconds as with me, it would be an exaggeration if i ask myself that often,instead i only do it whenver i feel lonely.and when is the time that i' m only if you ask.. it's when I watch my classmates those with GF/BF ones happy eating together during lunch time and enjoying the company of each other.It's inappropriate to say that i'm jealous but i can't help it.I'm an NBSB and whenever the topic is about relationships.. it really can't relate (haha..LOL) sometimes, i ask myself..am i really that ugly that no boy seems to have an interest in me? whever i see my face in the mirror, i'm average , not ugly and not that beautiful just like I said AVERAGE. but is this my average-ness the reason why i don't have a love life ?
I want to experience:
-the feeling of someone texting/calling me everyday just to say take care/goodnight/goodmorning/ have eaten alrready?./how do you do?
-being told that i shouldn't go out with other guys coz i only belong to him
-to be kissed in the lips gently
-to feel my heartbeat faster than the usual whenever he smiles at me
-to feel that he loves me in any ways that he can only do
they said that love is not easy to get .
you need to pray for it.
and im doing it.
the question is ,am i not doing it enough?
does it mean i needed to be motivated more?
gosh! who said having a lovelife is easy? i tell you ,it isnt !
it's like a BATTLEFIELD
