Today after talking to you in a serious manner a million thoughts went through my head.
What if I lost you for not trying hard enough?
I don't think I would be happy with myself because no matter what I say, pretend or do, I care about you immensely.
I'm just afraid, I guess...
Of letting you in, locking you inside and not being able to let go... Even if you want to.
If only you knew how much I really care and how sweet I really am.
If only you understood that I fight my demons for you.
Because I want you here.
Because I love you.
Because I care. 🌜