The Untold Story of Ross Lynch (boyxboy)

A Continuation (boyxboy)

The album had already been released. In the Top 10 on the iTunes charts, downloaded to my iPod, Ross singing my favorite song to help me fall asleep. I haven't had a nightmare until that day he looked into my eyes and said "I love you."

Until the night before Louder.

The summer was nice, R5 finished the Loudtour, and then spent most of their time in the studio. Of course, Ross was also filming Austin and Ally and I was lonely. All this time without Ross, I got to know Stormie, his wonderful and sweet mother. She had never expected her son to be gay, but was glad. She was glad that a person like I, one without a chance or self esteem, was brought to life in a way.

But Ross was slowly killing me, and he didn't even know.

They finished the album, Ross got a break from filming and I was reunited with my happiness. I got to see him when he wasn't tired, or hungry, or uncomfortable. I wasn't a burden on him during this time. The night before the album was officially released, I had a nightmare. And nothing has been the same ever since.

There was a party of course, in celebration of their success. Ross led me into the bathroom, and we had sex.

It began slow, the way I like it. His lips against mine, we shared saliva in the most sexiest way possible. His mouth always tasted like sugar and strawberries, it was a miracle I wasn't fat! He quietly moaned, not to give our explicit activity away to the unsuspecting party people outside. My penis began to grow, and he could feel it against his hips. He slowed his kissing and whispered, "May I?"

I kissed him intently as I swiftly took his shirt off. His abs were rock hard, and my penis was on its way. His pants were opened and I took the liberty of taking his dick into my mouth. "I take that as a no?"

I ignored him and continued to pleasure his thick penis, and he was growing in my mouth. As I took time to gasp for air, he pulled me up and pulled my pants down, exposing my skin to the cool air. Both of us being completely naked, he picked me up off the ground and sat us down on the toilet seat. Our penises touched, our minds knew what was next. Ross put his hands on my ass, lifted me up, and gently put me back down. His dick, thick and juicy as all hell, felt its way into my ass. Ross moaned.

The up and down motion of my ass being fucked caused my penis to hit his stomach. He abandoned aiding me to take my dick in his hand. The synchronized motion of his hand and my body resulted in his chest being sprayed in white. The second time I cummed he aimed my penis to his mouth. Ross was good at everything, including aiming my penis at his mouth. My cum shot right into it.

And his cum shot right into me. We both moaned, a little louder than expected, then giggled at our possible demise. I continued my up and down as we kissed, Ross always loved fucking and kissing at the same time, especially when there was cum in our mouths.

But that night, the nightmare arrived. It started as the amazing sex in the bathroom, but subtly changed to a darker scene. My inner emotions were shining through. On the surface, I loved Ross. But deep down, I simply couldn't bear the loneliness. My nightmare, of Ross murdering me, may have been a metaphor. It did feel, deep down, that he was taking a knife to my heart. I don't know how I could ever live without him. But being in this relationship is really sickening me.

I stay up all night thinking about it, I don't touch my food because I'm too busy thinking about it. It's been weeks and Ross hasn't noticed anything yet. He just... writes songs and smiles. That should make me happy, but knowing I'm in pain and him not showing any care hurts more than the happiness his smile brings. The nightmare never leaves my mind, like a never-ending movie in my head that I can't pause.

One night, after Ross and I went to DisneyLand and got home all sweaty and smiley, he lead me to his bedroom and pleased me in all the right ways. He spoke "I know you've been feeling down lately." My mood changed quick, from happy to curious. "You probably think that I didn't notice or that I don't care, but I did notice and I do care. I'm just not good with talking about feelings."

I interjected, "We don't have to talk about it."

"No, we do have to talk about it. You've obviously been feeling very bad lately, and I really do want to make it up to you. DisneyLand was pretty good, right?" I giggled. "God, I love that giggle of yours! That's the guy I fell in love with. And that's the guy I want in my life again."

We just layed there, my head perfectly rested on his shoulder, our bodies entwined romantically. I could feel his chest rising and falling with each breath. It reminded me of that one time in the bathroom. "You know I love you, right Ross?"

"I love you too."

We layed there, and right before I fell asleep in his arms, he whispered, "I have a surprise for you tomorrow."

Tomorrow

I expected to wake up in his arms, the same way I fell asleep. That wasn't the case.

Of course he left me, I thought. Sadness was forming in my eyes. I couldn't get up. My phone told me it was 11 o'clock.

I had to get up.

Totally not surprising at all, no one was home. Again, I sat on the couch and watched TV. Another unproductive, lonely day.

The front door slammed open. I jumped out of my skin. "Hey babe, get dressed." It was Ross, and I was shocked. What was going on? So I asked, "Shouldn't you be filming Austin and Ally?"

He walked to the room and picked a outfit for me, "Yea, I am." This made no sense. So I didn't say anything, I just stood there with a confused look. "Babe, do you trust me?' I shook my head yes. "Then get dressed. Hurry!"

After I was dressed, Ross led me to the car and we left. He purposely turned up the music (it was Louder no doubt) so I couldn't ask him anything. When we arrived to the Austin and Ally set, Ross was in trouble. Raini politely screamed, "WHERE THE HELL WERE YOU?"

"I went for Zac, it's time." Raini's face changed dramatically. What the hell is going on?

I stood there, refusing to move until I was told what is happening. Ross didn't mind, he was too busy running around making sure the cameras were on and that Laura, Calum, Raini and the R5 group were there. Wait, R5? And Stormie. And Mark. What is going on??

"Zac, babe, come here." I walked over to the front of the Sonic Boom counter, where Ross was standing. He rubbed his hands together like he always does when he gets excited. My face still had confusion written across it. He held my hands in his. "I know you've been feeling sad lately, and I know it's because you feel like I haven't been there for you. Well, today, I wanna tell you that I'll never leave you and I'll always be here for you." He let go of my hands.

And he got one knee.