rebirth + pjm

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"also, because ive been in love with you since the day i met you."

16 May//

"you meant like six hours ago or something?" and then his sentence hits me again. "eww yuck, wtf."

was that a confession?

"maybe it was, maybe it's not." after he said that, he disappears with a smirk.

okay now im fucking triggered.

"park.

ji.

FUCKING MIN!

get your demonic ass back here!"

° °

after showering, i stepped out of the bathroom, fully dressed in my pyjamas and my face covered with cucumbers.

.. only to find he was sitting on my bed looking at my school pictures. he turned to look at me and before knowing it, we both screamed.

"omfg you look like a ducking cucumber monster!" his voice had a hint of frustration.

"what the fuck are you doing on my bed!?" i screamed over him.

he stops and stares. "i said id tuck you in bed, remember?"

"jimin, it's two fucking AM."

"does it look like i care?"

yes.

"okay get in bed, princess." he groans.

"ewwwwwwwwwwwwww" i joked, but i secretly liked being called it. i climbed onto my bed obediently and let him drag the blanket up to cover me. i pay close attention to the way he does it. he's gentle and nurturing.

honestly, it's a shame he's born into a demon family.

"i think so too." he says out of nowhere.

"can you stop that?"

"nahhhh." he drags the word.

"so tell me the whole story." i say calmly.

"i died."

"what the fuck jimin."

"no seriously, i died." he says.

i sighed still not satisfied with his answer but i let it brush off. he continues.

"i once lived a life as a human." he began.

"then how are you a demon now?"

"just listen istg." he says but his face stiffens. "i killed my best friend. he was dating my crush, the crush i had for around five years."

"you killed your best friend for dating your crush?" i admit i was nicknamed miss insensitive throughout my whole school life.
but i turn around to see jimins head in his hands.

"no, he started to cheat on her. and he also abused her. there was this time i went to visit them for christmas and i could hear screams from outside. her screams." he continues, his face looks like he was about to break down. but he doesn't.

my heart drops.

i understand now.

you loved her so much that you couldn't even stand your best friend for hurting her.

i sat up slowly and imagined how hard it would've been for him. a sudden unknown feeling hammered my chest. the feeling you get when you could relate to someone's emotions. i don't know how the feeling got there. but it definitely was breaking me second by second. i moved closer towards jimin and held his head against my chest. "im sorry." for unknown reasons, tears streamed down my face. "it must have been so hard." i could feel my voice breaking.

i couldn't care less about the world now, all i know is this boy in front of me had been suffering this whole time. the boy who always smiled and chuckled at random times.

after a while, my tears are still flowing. jimin pushes back and he looks into my eyes solemnly, wiping away my tears with his hand. he kept his eye contact with me for a while until he finally shifts his head towards me.
then to my shoulder. he leans his head on my shoulder.

"you're impossible." he whispers and chuckles softly. he leaves his head on my shoulder for another while until he lifts his head up and places his hands on my cheeks, pulling his head and mine closer. like magnets, attracted to each other.

he looks into my eyes and i can feel my face burn red.

he laughs again and places a kiss on my forehead.

"go to sleep." he smiles, he brings his hand up to my cheek once more and drew a heart on it. "it'll help you sleep well."

i didn't sleep that night, my head was filled with jimin.

jimin.

jimin.

how much longer can you live with that pain, jimin?