who's really there for me?

chapter 13

i couldnt believe what was happening i thought harry was honest with me .i thought wrong ,how could i be so dumb . i put my phone on silent so i could be alone. i grabbed my phone there were 13 missed calls from harry. i was so mad i ran inside wishing this night would of never happened! i stopped in my tracks when i opened the door and saw harry in the livingroom talking to my aunt lou. i couldnt breath.

"dasia i can explain" harry said with a shacky voice

"i have nothing to say to you" i said as tears rolled down my face

i ran passed him to my room and closed the door .

i shuffled through my dresser to find my pack of blades when i finally found them i froze . staring at the blades flashbacks started running through my mind. as the flashbacks were playing i did the first cut and blood was dripping down my arm then it was cut after cut . then i finally stoped i grabed a towel from the closet and pressed on my wrist . i turned around to fine harry with tears running down his face . i cant believe he saw what i did . i stared at him with tear feeled eyes . he looked me and he steped closer and closer until he was just centimeters away from me. he slowly grapped my arm and removed the towal , more tears rolled down his face he let go of my wrist and pulled me in a tight hug.i wrapped my arms around him and just cryed.he hugged me even tighter .

"its ok baby just please dont ever do that again im so sorry for not telling you this is all my fault"

"harry im so sorry you had to see that ... im so sorry i really am"

he looked at me and kissed me. i couldnt believe after all he saw he still loves me and wants to be with me i felt something drip on my foot i looked down and saw blood. i forgot about my wrist i pulled away and grapped the towal off the ground and put it back on my wrist. he grabbed an ace bandage and some gauzes to wrap my wrist . after he was done wrapping my wrist he whipped the tears from my eyes and kissed me once again . he stopped and he walked me out of the room and to the car .

"dasia please come back to my place with me?"

"ok but your driving"

"thats fine with me "

We got in the car and headed on back to harrys place i was so tired and yet i let myself drift to a deep sleep....

I heard a noise couldnt understand a word but it sound like a familar voice. I opened my eyes and saw harry still driving but this time he was singing. Harry has never sung around me i was suprised. I tried to act like i was asleep so i could hear his beautiful voice.

•~ truly madley deeply i am foolishly completing falling and some how ...~•

I felt the car slowly stop. I didnt know what was going on. I felt harrys hand on my arm trying to wake me up. I slowly opened my eyes and looked at him.

"Harry were are we ?" I said confused

"Look for yourself babe" he said still a little shaky

I slowly turned my head and couldnt believe what i saw. I didnt want to be here to much memories. I closed my eyes and covered my face with my hands i busted out in tears.

" heyy heyy heyy baby its ok i promise im here with you" harry said trying to be all protective

We got out of the car and walked hand in hand up the sidewalk leading to the front door. I grabbed my keys and opened the door.i turned on the light and walked in first . Staring into the livingroom with tears rolling down my face.

" its just how i left it" i said with a shaky voice we walked slowly into my old kitchen I couldn't bear to be in there I ran to my room .all my stuff was there. I couldn't bear the thought of the memories . Tears rushed Down my face I sat on my bed and layed down and started crying . I let it all out . I couldn't hold it in anymore. The stress and the pain was to much . I hear foot steps I buried my face into my pillow Harry sits down on my bed and starts rubbing my back.

"I'm sorry babe , it's going to be ok I'm here for you know matter what you have been through so much today I dong blame you for crying "

Harry layed down next to me and pulled me in close and kissed my forehead . We cuddled for hours until dawn rose. I grabbed a few things from my bedroom or should I say my old bedroom and drove to Harry's house .