nEvEr aGaiN

2.

"I fucking needed you!" you said as you threw another empty glass bottle at the wall that once had beer in it, "I hate the fact that I still love you when all you did was tear me apart!" you say as you threw another empty glass bottle at the wall that once had wine in it, you kept throwing empty glass bottles at the wall and yelling your heart out until your hands began to ache and feeling your knees go weak and you having tears streaming down your cheeks with your bloodshot eyes, with your breath that smelled like the whiskey you drank an hour ago, you couldn't take it anymore. This was killing you so bad in the inside to the point you drank on a daily basis to make the pain go away, but it wouldn't help because all you felt was your insides eating you away, every. single. second.
Your body shot up from the bed in a matter of seconds, with sweat on your face and your cheeks burning. It was all a dream, you thought in your head. Not a dream actually, it was like a fucking nightmare. You shook your head to get it out of your head and stretched out your body and went into the bathroom to rinse up and brush your teeth. In new layers of clothes, you had a day off from the office today. You decided to make some breakfast and a cup of coffee before heading out to the beach that you loved most. After washing the dishes, you grabbed the keys off your counter and wallet before heading out. You got into your car and turned on the ignition then drove off, with the radio on and the windows down and breeze through your hair, your lips curved into a smile knowing today would be a good day for you even though you are going to be alone the whole entire time like always but you didn't mind because you liked to be alone, you thought it was better to do most things alone because it felt better that way without having to argue on where to eat or give out opinions with someone else, being alone kept you at peace and you wanted it to stay that way, even though it may sound lonely you didn't give a damn anyways, save money live better you thought as you chuckled. Arriving at your destination, there was a sunset. It was beautiful you thought out loud, you saw that there was no one around which made it better, watching the sunset is your favorite thing to do like almost everyday because it made you think of the memories you have made with your friends and family at this time years ago. Taking your shoes and socks off and walking through the rough sand, but you didn't mind, getting closer to the water you looked down and saw your reflection, you saw that you looked happy and calm, you felt better than ever before because at this moment you felt relaxed even though the incident yesterday made you emotional, but you gotten over it in matter of seconds when you slept. You wasn't able to hold a grudge or stay mad for long at anyone anyways, you thought it was pointless and a waste of time because not everyone is perfect, many made mistakes and you did too but you always have to move on no matter the situation, because there's a world out there to explore and to know more about and because you have a life to live before it vanishes in a matter of seconds, you have to make every moment worth your while. You zoned out of your thoughts and realized it was getting late, the moon and stars is out and that made you smile because you always loved the moon, you were always a night person since the mornings' always made you grumpy. You felt yourself getting goosebumps on your skin due to the wind and you had no jacket on because you forgot it on your kitchen counter at the apartment, you decided to stand up and slip on your socks and shoes and head to your car and drive home, on the way home your stomach began to growl, realizing that you haven't ate much today, you swung by a drive-thru and ordered food and ate on the way home without making a mess. As you arrived and parked in your drive-way and hopped out of the car with a bag of trash in your hand you locked your car, you saw a car that you once seen before drive pass by even though it was night out you still seen the color of the car due to the lamppost the car drove passed by. You tried to remember who's car it belonged to but you couldn't remember so you shrugged your shoulders and walked up to the apartment you lived in and unlocked the door, and headed inside. Locking the door behind you threw the trash away and threw your keys and wallet on the kitchen table and walked into your bedroom and stripped out of the clothes you wore today that is now wrinkled and hopped into the shower and rinsed your body and got out and threw on some pajamas without brushing or blow drying your hair, you brushed your teeth and headed off to bed and knocked the fuck out because you felt so exhausted even though you didn't do much today.