THE SECOND FACE

THE CURSE OF SINS ( I )

Humans are really good at doing three things. One being introvert, second being selfish, and another is indulging themselves into their own sins as well as in the sins of others. And this is the part from where the emotion strikes hardly with the realization, after a period of time.

My story is all about getting deceived by my own self when I was struck infront of the alter-egos that are realization, actions that are done in past and also the impressions of what can be among the others in the near future.
That cracked my nutshelled brain that day.

And Adding another page to my diary I wrote, keeping the secrets from whom you love may make them feel comfortable about yourself, but at the long run a day comes when the secrets aren't secrets anymore and that guilt bends over your emotions and you tend to cry for what you did in the past.
Yes that happened to me too.

Its 23rd August, 2015.

A group of good friends and and a girl whom I consider my life to be. All was going well until the evening came. An evening with a red sky covered up with crimson clouds. It was a bliss seeing the sky that day. That evening, red was the new blue for me....in every sense.

I was sitting on my balcony that time, gazing upon the beautiful sky that would merely be visible in my future. Meanwhile on the other side of my balcony....a crow was busy disturbing a baby little squirrel which was actually lost in there. With the time, that squirrel came running to my balcony and as it came suddenly, so did the crow did. Fate was written. A little creature lost the battle of living with the beast incarnate who was fighting to decrease it's starving.

My mind still has those blooddrops which was spilled over my blue shirt that day. The proof of how selfish I could be by not saving a life which should have a beautiful and nut-cracking life.

Another incident happened with me on 11th June, 2016.
And I wrote,

I lost the love of my life today. Maybe I lost my life. Not by separating myself from what I was build of...but distracting myself for I wished for.
These moments won't come back in my life again I know. Still I have done a sin today, by letting the one go away from me knowing that I was not the only one that could have made her smile.

And I will wait for another day....or night to come when the sins will be cleared from my fate. And I will get another reason to smile again among all the double faces.

I left writing that day. Cause that made me realized of what it takes of being a double face...and my second face is not worthy of been showing again.

Its skinned with sins.

( To be continued... )