Im officially the loosest of the fuckin squad.
First, all of this seems a stupid thing, but know that one of the more important persons in my life is doing it, it cant be wrong. Im the one is wrong. She cant be wrong, shes Sere.
The other slut, (hey this is me using the Word slut for the first time eh) who was raped by her chinese friend, i didnt care, it was her, all of what she do is completly wrong, even wrongly tan this text.
Then my other best friend in the world is scisccorising with another slut. Even my 13 year old friend im sure he has a crush or something. And i am here, waiting for my first stupid kiss, waiting for some kinda one who doesnt exist, or maybe will appear around my fourtys. What people around me is doing isnt wrong, IM wrong.
At this point, my first kiss will be acting with an ugly guy from my school who i totally hate,(another topic, we'll talk about that later) and thats not how it supossed to be. Its easy to be like the others. My existance is the most boring who toched this planet, and im really wishing that that quote seems ridiculouss to me when i get older, please, if you from the future are agree with me, pretend to your self that you're not.
I have clear, that im the problem...but wich part of me? im cursed by knowing that i suck but not knowing in what, apart of the fact that im here writing this like the drama queen that i am.
That acting role that i made, about being a strong sparkly princess who kick his friends in the nuts its killing me, cause im not strong. Everytime im around them i just want them to hug me while they are telling me all will be fine, but im always who is huging them. My life isnt bad. My life isnt god. My life is just nothing. I feel respectable when we talk about my singing perfomrance, or acting performance, but i dont feel need it by no one.
And that is sad and it sucks.
Everytime i find out a frind is giving a big step, and i am here in the start line, i feel awfaul. Worst if is she, cause if she's doing it, it cant be bad.
