You
how nice of you telling me to change and make promises sound like it's a game? everyday i wait and wait. said you love it there.
6 months of waiting, been through and now all i see is you putting an arm around some random girl.
i did the same thing and you left me. oh well now i see what your actual plan is. thank you shawn for teaching me how to appreciate what i have and not fooling around, i hope you enjoy your time with that girl.
maybe just maybe we weren't supposed to be together. tell me why i should stay? seeing you sharing laughter with her not even bothering me who almost blurted a 'hey buddy', I'm looking as stupid as i would ever be. standing in front my locker pretending to put my books inside.
you've changed.
and i know people change. just, just you change into a completely different person, in a negative way.
you're not that shy boy with curly hair anymore. i should've seen that coming.
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Mom told me that shawn's mom invited us for a welcome home barbecue for shawn. if the scene from yesterday didn't happen i would be jumping in happiness right now.
i went to my room, rest myself on the bed. i sighed knowing that what's happening now is so stupid.
i opened youtube hoping for some entertainment to help me forget about that asshole, the asshole i used to call 'best friend' .
hours of watching YouTube and it didn't help, I'm still worried about tomorrow's barbecue. should i wear jeans? or shorts? do i look desperate with skirts? will we be awkward?
fuck i muttered, just attend it and pretend I'm invisible. if only Harry's invisibility cloak is real.
things will get better, i promise
promise yourself asshole, you broke it.
