Lighting Christ's Flame in Your Heart

My Story

Hello, I'm Fable. I hope to share my life experiences with all of you. God has taught me many, many things over the years. I thought that sharing them could help you. Yes you, I'm looking at you my reader. Hello!

My story is like many out there. I was born in a Christian home. Now, I wasn't a Christian straight out of the womb, in fact I don't think I became a true Christian until I was in 8th grade. I "fell in love" with a guy online, much older than me. I was filled with guilt, for my mother had told me not to chat with people online...so doing this must of been so much worse. Now I've made some great Christian friends online, and these rules are changing a bit, but at the time it was different.) thI remember crying in the night over this. Despite the feelings of  "being loved" this online guy gave me, I felt empty, guilty, and afraid. Most of all I felt alone. But then I heard a voice in my mind. I felt a peace.

"You are not alone."

It was in that moment I knew, I had to confess to my parents. And I did. I learned that what I had felt with this boy was not love. I only loved the idea of a relationship, I loved feeling loved. I learned a lot from that, I've grown so much.

Soon after, I took a college level course called "Perspectives" where I learned about the global missionary movement. I didn't know at the time, but that set me on a long journey. Now, at the time my life was going great. I lived in Indiana. I had lots of friends, and not a worry in the world. I even remember thinking to myself, "Wow! Everything is so perfect!"

And then I had to move to Canada.

I was a serious wreck. I feel into overwhelming sadness. I had no friends, and being the extrovert (and to all those who know The 16 personality types I'm an ENFP.) and everyone I met seemed so withdrawn and anti-social. I begged God for a friend. Just one friend. God told me that I was his friend. I felt it, in that moment I knew it was the voice of the lord. That is when I realized that I hadn't been going about things the right way in my heart. God and I didn't have a real relationship. We weren't best friends. God was the friend that loved me dearly, and I only paid mind every so often. Things had to change.

I was in 9th grade, when I found out about a Christian club at my school. My brother and I joined, and were connected to an organization known as I Am Second. The man who came in talked about witnessing to our friends at school, and that we are all called to be ambassadors for Christ. My heart was opening, and everything was coming together. Many questions plagued my heart and mind over the next few months.

If I don't share the gospel with my friends, do I truly believe it?

What am I so afraid of? I claim to believe God is by my side...

Every pastor seemed to talk about witnessing. The youth leaders in my youth group. Once, I even broke down crying in front of my entire youth group while a speaker was talking to our group. I was overwhelmed. God was calling me to share the gospel with my friends. Verses in the bible popped up at me, telling me I had to do it.

"Then Jesus came to them and said, 'All authority has been given to me in heaven and on Earth. Therefore, go and make disciples of all nations baptizing them in the name of the father, and of the son, and of the Holy Spirit,cute aching them to observe everything I have commanded of you. And remember, I am with you always to the end of the age."
-Matthew 28:18-21
This verse was everywhere. In my devotions, in sermons, everywhere. I wasn't alone. I had nothing to fear. If I believed that, I would be sharing my faith!

"Why do you call me 'Lord Lord' and not do the things I say?"
-Luke 6:46
Every time I read this, it was a reminder that I wasn't out witnessing...

""You are the salt of the earth. But if the salt should lose its taste, how can it be made salty? It's no longer good for anything but to be thrown out and trampled on by men. "You are the light of the world. A city situated on a hill cannot be hidden. No one lights a lamp and puts it under a basket, but rather on a lampstand, and it gives light for all who are in the house. In the same way, let your light shine before men, so that they may see your good works and give glory to your Father in heaven."
‭‭-Matthew‬ ‭5:13-16‬ ‭

My brother and I ended up going street witnessing with I Am Second for a week. It was the best week of my life. Our mentor was most inspiring. He was kind and loving, and treated us as friends. I learned many things in that time, and I will share them later so that I don't get too sidetracked.

I am still continuing down this path. There are still many friends I need to witness to, though all of them know I am Christian. I hope to share many things with you, reader. Many things that I hope will build you up. Fill you with hope and purpose. I am but a spiritual baby, immature in things spiritual. I hope to journey down this road known as Christianity with you.