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WHO???

*Ding*

Who the fuck could that be? It's 1 AM and basically, all my friends are at clubs. Maybe it's a drunk text?

Adam: Meet me in the bathroom NOW.

Ok??? That's weird. I looked to where Adam was sitting and he wasn't there anymore. What's happening?

Nick and Josh were talking, so I just slipped off the couch and walked to the bathroom. I opened the door...

"What do you wa-" I said, not being able to finish my sentence because Adam's lips were in the way. Adam pressed his lips against mine and I felt something. It was different than other guys, it was just special. I felt connected to him, it felt right.

He pinned me against the door, causing the door to shake a little. But, I didn't mind, I was too into the kiss. He began to lips my lips, seizing entrance, I played with him and parted our lips.

Our foreheads pressed together, and both of us breathing deeply and fast. "What made you realize you wanted me?" I asked, looking at his lips like a hungry lion looking at some tender BBQ ribs.

"I always knew... I just never had the guts to take action. You are so beautiful, but you are so oblivious to it. You are so funny, and you don't even need to try. You are incredibly smart, which comes in handy. But most of all, you are so kind hearted, and this world would be nothing without you. At least, for me. Because I know tha- " Adam said. I couldn't let him finish. I know how much he appreciates me and that really turns me on. 

I quickly pressed my lips against his and, without even thinking, I let his tongue enter my mouth. I pulled apart to take off his shirt, when all of a sudden, Josh barged in. We quickly pulled apart, stepped away from each other.

"WHAT THE FUCK?!?! I COME IN HERE TO TAKE A PISS AND I SEE... THIS? WHY ARE YOU DOING THIS, ADAM??? WHAT ABOUT ASHLEY?" Josh exclaimed, aggravated and disgusted.

"WHAT???? WHAT WITH ASHLEY?!?" I shouted, aggravated and curious. 

"Oh shit... she didn't know?" Josh said, placing his hand over his mouth.

"FUCK! Seriously Josh?" Adam said, clearly aggravated at Josh, he then turned towards me, "Anna, I can explain!" He looked at me with his apologetic eyes. I knew that he was sorry and I knew he regretted whatever he did, but I thought he liked me. I though he was different! Guess I was wrong.

I couldn't hold it in anymore, "OH MY GOD!!! I CAN'T BELIEVE IT!!! GO KILL YOURSELF!!! I HATE YOU!! DON'T EVER SPEAK TO ME AGAIN!" I said, storming out of the bathroom and house quickly enough to hide my tears. Leaving Adam fighting with Josh in the bathroom, instead of chasing me.

I KNEW IT!!! Everyone I ever love/loved hurts me! Why would I think differently with Adam? He's just another fuckboy who can't control himself. At least it happened before it was too late.

Fuck this!!!! I know I said I wouldn't do it anymore... but it helps me get my mind off of everything. I can't help it.

I quickly walked to the front of my house, and right under Ashely's window... there it was. The only thing that could get my mid off things.

When I was about 15, I smoked my first blunt... it set me free and I actually liked it . Many people told me that it was bad... everyone actually.  But, I didn't listen. It helped me, it was always there, unlike real people. So many people have let me down. Drugs can help me forget, I don't think I have any other option. I'm fucking stupid... I know.

I strike a match and light the blunt. I pull it to my mouth and intoxicate myself with the smoke

See you later world.