Could've

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It's the next day.. Saturday..

Did I realy just text Nathan Kendrick yesterday about superheroes? Will he message me a good morning? Probably not. Actually, 'probably' is hoping too much. Reality will say I'm being delusional. He talks to everyone the same way.. I shouldn't be too excited about this.

I check my phone.

No message. Great. Hopes and dreams crushed.

That's what I get for expecting.

I should have known.. ugh.

I'm at the mall with my parents when I heard my phone vibrate. Could it be? I mean who else would it be?

It was Roxanne. Damn it.

Roxie
"Yo. You wanna go out today?"

How I wish that text was from Nathan..

Me
"I'm kinda already outside with other people"

"Ur already replacing me??😠"

"Haha no babe. Im with my parents.."

"Sighhhhh"

"We'll go out next time, ok?"

"Ok..."

My phone vibrates immediately after I turned it off.

I check.

"Heyy. I just heard there was gonna be a Spider-Woman movie??"

That can't possibly be from Roxie... It must be from.. NATHAN!

IT IS. FANGIRLING. INTENSIFIES.

Ok. Calm down.. you can't fangirl in public. Keep your cool.

Should I answer it now? Later? Maybe later..

I already answered immediately last time. Doing it again would be crazy.

Maybe I'll just wait for 5 mins. No. 10. Ok.. it's 12:46 now.. 12:56.. no wait.. why be so on time? He will suspect it.. 12:57... why not 12:55? Ugh.. stop Nicky.. 12:57. That's final.

I keep checking my watch.. every minute feels like hours.. what if I miss my chance? What if he ignores me? He would if I took too long. He would get annoyed and forget about me. I'm just a nerd girl right?

Are we friends? Or are we just nerds who talked about comic books the other night. To me, it's more. To someone like him, it's nothing.

12:53..
I can't take it.. ugh.. I gotta say something.. NOW

I unlock my phone. He's not online. Thank god.

I type:
"Hey"

No. No greeting. He didn't give YOU a greeting. Why should you? He's just asking a simple question..

I re-type:
"Really?? When?"

Sent.

Now we wait..

I keep checking my phone. The notifications that pop-up are the worst. It's the worst feeling expecting something for a really long time and getting something else you don't want instead. And by a 'really long time', I mean like 2 minutes.

Then tragedy comes.. it has been half an hour since I texted. He's not replying..

This is it.. Nicky, you can now visit your hopes and dreams in the graveyard.

How could I be so stupid. I'm here waiting for a text back from the most popular guy in school. He's over there probably in a party or something with some chick, smashing their faces into each other.

1:30.. phone vibrates.
I can bet it's another notification from twitter.

"Yeah, I heard from my dad? You know about this?"

Nathan... though I have no idea what he was talking about with the movie.

"Um. Nope not a clue."

"Oh.."
"Well actually, what's spider-woman actually about? Never really read it before."

I have..

"Well there's different stories, slightly diff. There's the"

I haven't finished typing but he went offline. What's that supposed to mean? Was he bored?

Ugh. I still continued typing and sent a long paragraph about Spider-Woman, which I immediately regret.

It was already an hour. No messages, still. I honestly don't know what I'm expecting. He obviously has more important and fun things to do than text me about comic books..

I was eating dinner when he finally said something.

"Wow.. that paragraph sounds like something out of wikipedia😂"

I immediately opened, got too excited, forgetting about the 11 minute rule.

"Haha. Well wikipedia or a comic fan?"

"Haha. Totes from the best fan ;)"

Woah.. he needs to stop with the winky faces.. I'm gonna get a heart attack soon. He typed again.

"Anyway, sorry I didn't reply immediately. I had to do something in the house."

'Do something in the house'?? Is that even reasonable? Feels like a complete made up lie..

"It's aight"

Haha. You're not cool Nicky..

We kept talking about movies and actors and stuff. I was definitely more of a nerd than he is but I had to keep explaining things to him. I don't know if it was a good thing because I didn't want him to think I'm a huge nerd. Then again, what DID I want him to think of me?

Then he ended of with a:

"Oh shoot, my phone's at 1%. Gtg. Ttyl?"

"Oh ok ttyl!"

":)"

End scene.. he left. Why do I have a song feeling that was a complete lie.. ugh.. why do I care so much. You're not his girlfriend Nicky. Just because you talked for two days doesn't mean you're dating.

Doesn't mean you're the only one...