maniac // brendon urie (done)

Chapter 7: "I want this all to go away."

"Hey Sarah! What's up?" He said in an uplifting voice.

"Josh, can you come over?" I said as I wiped my tears.

"I'm on my way Sarah. Don't worry," Josh said as he hung up the phone.

It couldn't stop. The tears just couldn't stop. I felt awful. My stomach was in my throat and my heart was beating out of my chest.

I ran to the door when I heard a knock.

I was so thankful for Josh. He continued to calm me down and stayed over for the night.

My breathing got heavy and I was close to passing out.

"You alrigh-?" Josh asked me as the room began to fade away.

The next thing I remember was Josh waking me up.

"Good morning Sarah," Josh whispered to me.

"Hi Josh," I said in my scratchy morning voice.

"How you feeling?" Josh asked me with concern.

"Josh, I ruined their marriage. I can't-" I said as I got choked up.

"It's going to be fine. These antidepressants should help you during the day," Josh said as he handed me a pill bottle, labeled 'Joshua Dun.'

"Do you use these?" I asked Josh before I slipped a pill into my mouth.

"How do you think I'm so calm before every show? You think I played Madison Square Garden without any help? Trust me. These bad boys work," Josh said as he giggled.

He handed me a glass of water and gave me a hug. It felt so good to be wrapped around someone's arms.

Josh told me he had to leave for soundcheck. I wished him good luck at his next show.

"Sarah, it's going to be okay. Alright?" Josh said as he gave me a hug.

Josh walked back to his car and waved good-bye.

I saw Kylie packing up boxes filled with her belongings. Was she moving out?

I knew she was leaving because of me. She probably never wanted to speak to me again. Was turning in Brendon a bad choice?

A/N : hi so if you dont like reading triggering stuff then dont read this next part !! ok that's all lol enjoy my horrible story

It was all my fault.

I ruined someone's life.

I needed to clear my mind so I decided to go for a drive.

I didn't know where I was going but something told me to keep driving.

I drove past my old school.

Everything was much simpler then.

When I was younger, I was so anxious to meet the love of my life.

I thought Brendon would be him.

He turned out to be my worst fear.

I just wanted all of this to go away.

I took a deep breath and unbuckled my seat belt.

I swerved into a light pole and my car slammed into it.

I got tossed back & forth and my head banged against the window, causing it to shatter.

My eyes slowly closed as people rushed over to me.

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