Night Skylines

Chapter 3

Later that night I was home. I could've stayed with Lexi, I forgot Mom works the night shift now. The phone in the car kept running across my mind. I looked up the terms incalls and outcalls. To my surprise I found out that they were terms used in the escort world, to designate where the client and the escort would meet up to fuck. I felt defeated. Was Lexi a prostitute? Was i being played in a relation no scratch that friendship that i was barely in already? I needed answers. I whipped out my phone and facetimed Lexi. She answered seemingly rocking her self to sleep. "Whats UGh!!! Up Kiddahhhh!!" She was being fucked. "I can call you back later if you want Lexi." I offered her in no mood for this bullshit. "No CJ Nooooo, yes yes yes yessssssssssss!!!" was her reply. i assume she had just climaxed. "whats up CJ" she said in a tired huffy puffy voice. "Nothing i think i got my answer right now." I said in a clearly pissed off tone. "I don't know why I even got wrapped up in your little game. I'm not a toy Lexi." I ranted on. "CJ calm tf down kid, we're not in a relationship.........yet. I can fuck whoever I want." "thats not it Lexi. yes you can fuck whoever you want, I just didn't know you were getting paid for it." "Woah Chris thats low." you could hear the nigga she was with buckling his pants. "MY MOTHERFUCKING NAME IS CHUCK. GET THE SHIT RIGHT " I yelled at her. "Chuck, CJ, let me explain. Come back over. I'll tell you everything." "No" was my answer. "If you don't i'll report my car stolen CJ" "I don't give a shit." is what I told her. "The door will be open CJ, come to the bathroom." is all she said.

So When I pulled up to Lexi's house (I know, I know, I tried to be resistant.) I opened the door and walked to the bathroom. My phone and the flip phone in my hand. I was still visibly mad as shit. My heart sank when I found Lexi unresponsive in the bath tub. She was just laying there. Empty pill bottle outside of the tub. "LEXI, LEXXXXI WHAT DID YOU DO!!!!!" i said as i started to cry. Just then she jumped up as if I startled her. "Oh hey CJ. My bad I fell asleep." "Lexi did you take all those pills?" I asked her highly concerned. "No the bottle was empty, I need some. I need Xans CJ." she said almost begging me. "Get in." she motioned. I wanted to object but I couldnt. I took my clothes off and hopped in the tub. "Free your mind CJ" she said as she poured two cups of henny and coke. I didn't even notice it. I was still kinda mad so I took the cup and chugged it. "Damn... You really upset huh?" she asked in a dry almost scared tone. It didn't stop her from pouring another one this one I sipped. 3 cups and a bunch of small talk later. She was laid up on me. I wasn't feeling it. The alcohol was just making me more in my feelings. "Are you a prostitute." I blurted out with no warning. She didn't seem startled by the question at all.

"No CJ, actually I am not. That phone you found in my car. Its a just a screen copy of my mom's phone. I got it at a spy shop. If you havent fuckin noticed, i've been here alone all day. My Mom runs away all the time. Leaving me alone. I take care of myself. Since I was 14, seeing my mom is like a once a week and a half thing. That flip phone is how I know where she is. It's how I know that in the midst of all that danger she's in she's ironically safe." Lexi paused to pour her another drink. She grabbed a vial off of the floor. It was small and white. She emptied on the side of the tub. Oh shit this bitch got cocaine I thought to myself. Sure enough, she smoothed it into a line and snorted it right up. "CJ im fucked up. And I don't mean right now, I mean as a person, emotionally, mentally. Like I met you not even 24 hours ago and im sitting in a fucking tub with you. I just fucked my plug for 30 minutes for some weed its gonna take me ten minutes to smoke. I never met a drug I didn't like. Why she leave me CJ?" Lexi started to cry. "Why she leave me?" she laid her head on my chest and I held it. And I thought about my life. How I managed to distract myself away from what was bothering me. How I just didn't understand things. Why did my dad not want me? Why didn't girls want me? Why does Lexi trust me so much? Does she want me? Am I just a diary to her? Am I sure of anything?

"Lexi you're beautiful." I said trying to comfort her. Snot all over my chest but I didn't mind. "Nothing in this world is certain. I just realized that." I told her. "A mother's attention, attention at all. sometimes you just wonder if they aint want us, why didn't they just wear a damn condom. No one knows why we're put on Earth, We can only just pretend that we know, and keep pretending until we believe it. Lexi your mom is in a bad place right now. You want to be better than her right?" I could hear a slight change in her breathing pattern.You gotta find yourself Lexi. You gotta find yourself beyond the drugs and the sex. You gotta realize that being alone, is the greatest test one can take. When you're alone you have no one to blame. Why am I listening to this shitty Desiigner song? Because I turned it on, the blame is all mine. When you're alone you learn who your true self is. And it took me not being alone to realize that alone is good. And once you become comfortable with alone, you find others wanting to join your space." I believe Lexi had cried herself to sleep. Right there at that moment, we were two souls together alone. Alone together. Jointly together. Separately alone. I drifted off to sleep too.

I was awakened by the door busting open and this big nigga with a gun yelling "You gone give me every mothafuckin thing you stole from me plus interest and that throat bitch...." And while I don't think he was talking to me, he pistol whipped me with his gun and I passed out...