Im In Love with My Best Friend

Prologue

Come to think of it !!

Na in love ka sa isang taong kaibigan lang ang turing sayo, no scratch that , KAPATID Lang ang turing sayo .

Ang saya saya diba ?

Mahal mo pero best friend lang turing sayo.

Hahahaha...

Apat na tawa para sa katangahan ko ! Oh di ba bongga ! Si tanga ako eh .

Tanga na nagmamahal sayo !!

Sabihin ko mang di ako nasasaktan , pero deep inside my heart broke into million pieces .

So niliko ko pa ang sarili ko nyan . Sa pagtangi sa nararamdaman ko !

Maraming nagsasabi na baliw na daw ako.

Siguro nga baliw na ako , baliw na umiibig sa bespren ko ! -__-

Sabi ko nga , I'll better love someone in silent than showing what I really feel .

Para ano pa ? Kaawaan nya? Kaawaan ng lahat?

Loving someone in silent is better than showing what your really feel  . kahit na di ko masabi sakanya atleas nararadaman nya na importante sya , na andito lang ako sa tabi nya , na mamahalin sya  kahit may mahal syang iba .

Para ano pat ipakita kong manhid naman sya. Obvious na nga . Ipagpipilitan ko pa sarili ko sa taong may mahal nang iba.

Kahit ano namang gawin mo . Masakit pa din naman . Masakit kasi hindi nila kayang ibalik yong pagmamahal na ibinigay mo. Masakit kasi binabaliwa ka lang. Masakit kasi yong katotohan na KAIBIGAN KA LANG !

Mahal mo nga , mahal ka ba nya?

Kapag ba nagmahal ka , mamahalin ka rin ba? Pag ba sinabi mo yong nararamdaman mo , may magbabago ba? Magbabago ba yong katotohanan na hanggang kaibigan ka lang ?

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"Of all people ? Why? Why him? " I remain silent .

"Oh please ! Stop this non sense ! Don't you dare tell me that your not hurting !"

"Stop pretending that I'm ok ? Is that what you want to hear ? That I'm not happy ? Yes , I'm not happy "

"Your causing a big wound in your heart !! Falling for him is your biggest mistake in your life !"

"Yeah right ! Know what ! I don't know where the earth start this fucking feelings of mine ! I just woke up one day ... I-i already in love with him . I already fall for him. I just realized that I LOVE HIM not because his my BEST FRIEND  but also a man who really fit to change me !!"

"I really love him !! Still hoping that one day , he will see ma as woman ! A woman to be loved , to be loved by him !"

"You know !! Its really hurt ! Im fucking hurt ! Seeing him with someone hits me , jealousy sucks ! Strike me ! "

"You don't deserve this ! You don't need to suffer like this ! You know that I'm always here for you " then he hug me .

" I know ! But your not him "

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