*POETRY WAS MY FIRST LOVE, UNTIL I STARTED WRITING FICITON. HOWEVER, ONCE IN A BLUE MOON I REVERT TO MY ROOTS AND GIVE YOU SOMETHING DELICATE, RAW, EMOTIONAL AND REAL... ENJOY :) *
Something shattered,
Something’s broken.
I open my mouth
And my throat starts closing.
What have you done?
Everything is changing.
I’m waking up screaming,
I think I’m going crazy.
My heart beats too slow,
My soul chips and crumbles.
Was I asking too much?
Is this all my fault?
Reality crept into
Our perfect fantasy.
Destroying all of our hopes;
Crushing all of our stupid dreams.
And the actuality is that,
I would take you back.
I would surrender my heart
And risk it all again.
Deal with the pain,
Put up with the lies.
Karma has spun around
There is fear in my eyes.
All the things I put them through,
All the heartbreak and the cries;
Suddenly it is my turn now
To choke down someone’s lies.
And so I’ll wait here patiently
Just hoping for the best.
Hoping that my silly heart
Won’t beat right from my chest.
Use me if you need to,
Take me at my best.
Use me if you want to,
I’ll clean up the mess.
What a beautiful mess;
What a beautiful disaster,
Taking only what she needs,
Never leaving me with anything.
What are you, what are you
So afraid of?
Darling, you give but
You cannot take love.
- Ashley Elizabeth Markert
