Lie. [Kagehina]

Lie1.

"I don't see you that way." Kageyama honestly said. "And further more... I have no intention of seeing you that way in the future." He bows lowly to the orange haired boy. "Sorry." He said having a painful expression while bowing in front of him.

Hinata POV

Watching Kageyama... As he said that to me.. I remembered my mind strangely calm. I feel like I've seen this somewhere before...

Oh yeah..

Whenever he rejects someone...

He wears this tragically painful expression. My first love, as a high-school freshman..resulted in...

...utter failure.

-next day-

"Hahaha! Mornin' did you see.. What's up with him?!" My highschool freshman classmate said as I came inside the class crying and sniffing. "I dunno! He's been bawling the whole morning!" His friend said.

"Hinata! Want a snack? Hmm?" The girl said as she appeared behind them with pocky in her hand. "Sure." I said sniffing. "What's wrong? Did something happen?" She said and handed me pocky. I grab it and took a lot of it and put all of it in my mouth.

"I got dumbed." I said a lot of pocky still in my mouth. They were shocked when I said that. "Hinata liked someone?!" Someone said sitting in front of me. "No clue.." I hear someone murmured.

'Morning practice was sooo awkward. I missed so often, and Kageyama was glaring at me tons... I wonder if he'll lecture me later..' I thought while I rested my head down my desk. This sucks. I mean, I knew this was how it'd turn out...

So why...
Why did I go and confess to him...?

*flashback*
Kageyama threw the ball to me and as I was just about to hit it, the ball was flying to my left and of course, I missed it.

"Ugh, catch balls like that!" Kageyama said irritated. "Well it's dark! I can't see well!" I said as I go off running to where the ball rolled into and getting it. "No excuses! Your focus has been off a lot lately!" He said.

"Th... That's not true!" I said, I've got the ball and it's in my hands and I threw it to him. He threw it back and the ball was flying towards me.. I hit it with my hands tied but I still missed it. The ball hit my left hand.

EEK! Oh no.. "Wai- No!! That one was just--" I cut my own words when he grab my hand and surprisingly, he's teaching me how to do it. "Your stance is too weak." He said as he grabbed my other hand and pressed both of my hands froward.

"Drop your hips." He said, slapping my hip. "Spread your legs. Brace your arms after you sight the ball." He said, making his other hand over my shoulder and the other pressing both of my hands forward.

I was spaced out. Feeling his touch.. Ugh. "Oi! You're getting a hands-on lesson from me! Are you listening to me?!" He said as he grabbed my collar and facing him. Before I knew it, my tears rolled down and dropped one by one. His eyes widened and released his hand off my collar.

"You don't have to cry about it!!" He said, his expression ridiculous. "NoNoNo! That's not why I'm...!!" I said making a ridiculous expression like him too. "Something just... Went all guoooh inside!" I said as I motion my hands. "Just a minute! I'll make it stop! Ngh" I said as i wiped my tears and hold my self from crying. I can see kageyama's expression like he gave me a 'seriously?' Look.

"Y... You wanna take a break?" He said and pointed at the tree that our bags are resting. I made him have to be considerate....
"Well, uh... I... Don't really get it but... Hang in there, I guess?" He said looking at the ball in his hands and playing it. Really considerate, at that....

"I'm sorry, Kageyama. I'm fine, let's get back to practice." I said looking up at him. "It's fine, just rest. You've been pushing yourself a lot lately, after all." He said grabbing the bottle of water and drink it.

After drinking, he closed the cap and took off his shirt to change another because it has sweat all over it. "But..." I said as I turned to him and find him half naked and... That was just hot. I turned myself quickly to the opposite and a color of red flow through my cheeks. I banged my head to my knees up and down because of embarrassment.

"Hm, it's deflated...." He said, touching the ball. He already had clothes on. "We should pump it later." He said.
Kageyama's head is full of volleyball related stuff. So there's no room for someone like me. I know that. I really do.

So why do I love him this much, then? Tsk.... Sure would be nice if he'd look my way at least a little...

I glanced at him and faced my face to him. I reached his head and ran my hand through his hair, rustling it. "Huh? The hell is up with you?" He said looking at me suspiciously. I snapped out of it. "Ah! Ah- um, I... You had... A.. A leaf..." I stuttered. He looks at my hand in his hair, he seems wary about it. He closed his eyes feeling my touch anyway.

Before I knew it, he was staring at me and about to reach my hair when.. My heart suddenly go Badump. I made that expression. That expression. That flustered expression. It always made my heart beat whenever he makes me nervous.

Crap!! 'With a reaction like that... Even he's going to realize!' I thought of it. "Um this isn't-" I cut off my own words. "Hinata." He suddenly said. "Hyeah????" I said nervously. "Are you perhaps..." Here we go.. Ready for the impact.

"... Not feeling good?" Say what now? "Your face is red. It's a cold right? Geez, you should've just said so to begin with!" He said picking up his sling volleyball bag and swing it on his shoulder. "'Kay, let's head out." He said turning around to head out.

"That's not it you dimwitted 'Bakageyama'!!" I said frustrated, my face became purple. "Huh??" He said turning around to me. 'Ack!! Crap!' "Then what is it? You're acting weird.." He said facing me.

Saying what's wrong...
...won't make me feel better.
Kageyama doesn't feel anything for me at all. And yet I still...

"I love you." I said. "I'm... In love with you!" I said to him agaian, blushing. "Ah, um, you... Probably don't understand what I just said... I don't mean as a friend or teammate..." I stuttered knowing that he might not understand.

"You meant it in the romantic sense, right?" He said.
"Y-yeah!"

"So you want to date me, that kind of thing?"

"Yeah!"

"I can't. I don't see you that way. And I have no intention of seeing you that way in the future."

*flashback end*

"Sorry"

And yet...
The while reason that I confessed..was because I held out the faintest hope he'd see the real me then.

I never, ever...wanted to make him wear that expression...

A/n: how was it??? Yup. My first story or fanfiction rather. Please vote and comment! =} k bai.
Ja ne~