100 Voicemails (One Shot)(NotEDITED)

The Message and Psycopath

My heart is breaking every single time that those supposedly wide bright eyes are getting duller and more lifeless. I'm sitting beside him trying to lean my head into his shoulders, but damn, I keep forgetting about the fact that I am just a damn air. A lost soul.

He's clutching into his phone very tightly as he prepared to speak making me wish that he's clutching ME instead because I'm his lifeline. Not his phone. But I guess it's the only thing that he can hold into and at the same time feeling connected to me.

I took out my phone and got ready with the voice mail he wanted to send me.

His only wonderful and melodious voice is ringing around and I listened carefully thinking that this would be the last time I'm going to hear him. This is the last time that I'm going to remember him.

Guess I'll make the best of it while it lasts.
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"Hi sweetie,-

My heart leaps with joy.

-I'm here now, but I'm late I'm so sorry-

"Don't say sorry. It's alright baby, as long as you stay with me." My heart aches.
"As long as I won't lose you again."

-I'm so goddamn sorry for being late. I want you to know that I've always loved you too and I always will. I promise you that. I love you Ari. And I'm sorry."

My tears of happiness were literally flooding around me as my heart leaps from joy. I heard his voice again saying that he loves me. "I love you too Steve, I know that you love me Steve. I just hope that you can hear me right now and know that I love you too. Deeply. I love you Steve."

"I was never really punctual, was I? I've been the one arriving a few minutes late on our dates. you'd be the one waiting for me.-

"Not just for a few minutes, you bloke!" I yelled as I laughed while a couple of tears escaped my eyes and while my chest throbs painfully when I remembered that one time where I was the one waiting for him on our date. I gave him a silent treatment that time. Isn't the guys supposed to be the one waiting for the girls on their dates?
I chuckled a little, good times, good times.
I smiled sweetly while my heart clenches as those happy memories rushed back.

-And even now, even when I was unconscious. You waited for me. Im so sorry for making you wait. If I could do things over again, I'd never make you wait. Not even for a second.-

I smiled sadly as the traitor tears started to fall and those stabbing feeling came upon my chest again. "If I could do things over again Steve-" I said quietly while emphasizing the word I. "- I would've waited for you, I won't ever make that mistake, I will never even think about it, not even for a second. And that's because I never wanted to leave you. If I could do things over again Steve." I sobbed as I tried to touch his hand.

-God I miss you. I miss you so much, every day. -

"I miss you too. So damn much. I'll miss you for an eternity."

-I never really forgot sweetie, my memories were a bit delayed , that's all. But I do remember you. I remember everything. I remember your laugh, especially how you snorted when you laughed too much. You were always embarrassed after that but I loved it. I love it. I love everything about you.-

I laughed hard as my tears started to fall faster. I feel like a pshycho. "I look so dumb when I snorted, you dickhead!" I laughed as I wished that he can hear my laugh. "I wish I can promise you that I won't ever forget
about you too Steve. That if I stayed to long in this hell dead, I'll still remember you." I let out a gurgling sound as I tried to remove the ache from my chest. "But there's one thing that I can promise, and that's-" I sobbed. "-I'll never forgot about the love I have for you. I'll love you forever."

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The bold lines are the things that were said by Steve.