Yeah so James was my last name . I got it from my foster mother ... Although my real mother couldnt take care of me because the bitch was so high off cocaine that she sold me to Kelly James, my foster mother for 3 dollars and a train ticket. I dont remember much about my father, but im sure he was probably a nice rich man that fucked a slut / crackhead like my real mom. Or atleast that the things i fanasize about. For all i know, My father can be dead , but i wouldnt care because he let my mother sell me ... but anyways , in the foster home, life was diffucult . For one, none of the other kids liked me here . They would steal my food at dinner and put gum in my hair and tell Kelly that i did it myself .. I never called Kelly " mama " .. I just never felt like a daughter to her .. She was never really home, she worked all types of hours to support and provide food and clothers for all 7 of us. And i never liked the fact that it was 7 of us because 7 is an odd number ... It was me , jacob , chrissy, Fatima, Casey, Nia , and Darcy.. Jacob was the only boy, which made him stand out from all of us, and made him more important. Jacob Hated me the most, which i didnt understand because all i ever did was say Hi to him. But jacob was quiet, he never really spoke unless our forster dad came home , which was atleast twice a year .. Our foster dad worked in the army which is why we barely seen him .. and then he died last summer, so there was no more talking for Jacob . Jacob didnt even come with us to the funeral, he stayed in his hell of a room which i never been in cause he doesnt trust me, nor like me at all .. Nia said the only person thats been in there was Chrissy, and ever sense chrissy been in there, she also doesnt speak anymore. Chrissy doesnt even come out her room unless she has to use the bathroom.. Weird right ? She doesnt even go to school , and Kelly doesnt care , cause shes never home to notice .. I never felt safe here .. I feel losted here .. Like everything here is not for me .. This envoirment is weird , everything is out of order to me ..
