if you only knew , Secret Admirer (August Alsina Story

Dec.1st

      ts almost the end of the year and I still don't have no male friends , I never thought I was ugly but being in this new school is making me feel that way. My name is Nyomi , im 5'5 w/ long black hair that's almost 20 inches. ima Brownskin .. and ever one knows team brownskin is winning (: i have a pretty face but not so cute waist  ! i just moved schools so i can focus more on my studies. i was the life of my school, well that's how i felt, it seemed like everyone loved me, and i stayed with some attention. Now a Brook Heights i get no love whats so every... sucks right ?

     Well i guess you can say im crushing .. i never felt this before but this boy has really been on my mind lately. All i Know About him is his name , August . . August Alsina ! hes the  definition of Perfection ! ! Cute Light Bright with the shinney  whites ! lol That wjhat i want to call him . but i Also know his Locker number . too down from mine locker 2188 .. Sounds creepy right ? i have two classes with Him and we have the same lunch ... sometimes i like to sit with theses girls i know just so i can look at him .. i picture we on a date together ........My Friend said i should write a get to know you letter and tell him about me before i speck because i really scared of rejection... but ill guess ill give it a try.......

AUGUST ALSINA IS ONE OF THE CUTEST  DUDES TO WALK IN BROOK HEIGHTS THE ONLY PROBLEM IS THAT HES STUCK UP AND COCKY .. PLUS HES THE STAR OF THE BASKETBALL TEAM SO WHAT FEMALE AINT TRYNNA HOLLA ?

Dec 4 .

    So i hung out with some people yesterday but you know what Drake said no new friends but we chilled at the mall .. you cant guess who i saw , well mabe you can .. August ! he was looking fly of course . we was telling everybody about the big game coming up .. our basketball team is playing the North Champs of Last season .. their out of our district so our schools taking a trip ! So ima go and look cute .. i might even slip him his letter 

   tbh , im really afraid of rejection .. not because im ugly but because i might not be his type but only time can tell an im fine to take chances soo ..... lets pack !

AS YOU KNOW NYOMI IS LEAVING THE CITY TO GO TO THE GAME BUT WILL THIS BE A MISTAKE ??

Dec 5 .

      Never been at school so early but i guess its for the travel .. im hoping i get to ride on the bus with august but its not like ima speak , just want something to look at .

    as im getting on the bus i notice the basketball players have there own bus but im not mad .. i get to ride with the cheer leaders , as we sitting on the bus the cheerleaders talked about all of the players but when they got to august i got fully interested ! . they said August Had a girlfriend for 2 years , her father was going to ship her off back to Texas, her and august wasn't planning on leaving each other so soon so they wanted to have a child . They had sex when ever and where ever . im the gym , on the bus , behind the school and his car .. i wonder how many positions they used , im upset to hear hes freaky cause i can compare with That .. but anyway the said when she finally got prego she tol he father , she told him she cant leave now august had a baby on the way , a boy ... i guess her father was mad . they said her dad beat her and killed the baby then sent her to her mother ... no one saw her since ... august haven't even talked to her .

  i thought i had it bad .. i got ganged raped when i was 14 , im 16 now and it still hurts . i went out with some girls i called my friends .. you know been young every one was boy crazy so we met up with some boys at the movies  .. we watched the first Twilight , it was good i guess you can say . as we was waiting on our rides one of my friends left so it was two of us girls and three other boys. one of the boys big brother came to pick them up and he asked if we wanted a ride .. i didn't want to seem scary so i got in .. but my friend didn't .. i didn't know what i got myself into , when we pulled off i asked them to take me home shaking and sweating they said they had to make a stop first .. i started breathing hard and trying not to cry .. i new something was up cause the car was sitting in the same spot for so long .. the boy next to me rubbed his hands down my legs . when i told him to stop he punched me , i was knocked out and when i woke up it was two boys forcing their self inside of me .. one in the front and one in the back i new they wasn't the first to rap me when i was out because it was blood running down my leg .. i yelled i cried but it felt like no one was there  .. if only someone was there .. they left me as i tried to get my self together i walked out of what seemed to be an ally and went to the closest gas station .. i called my mom then the police .............. i still remember that as if it was yesterday

 

      maybe he didn't have it worst than me but i had a feeling if we was to be together it wouldn't be so bad , we could help each other with our struggles ...

 HER LIFE STORY SOUNDED CRAZY I MUST SAY BUT I GUESS YOU CAN SAY IT MADE HER STRONGER IN THE INSIDE

 Dec 7

its the night of the game .. i got oh so cute .. put on i put on a black long sleeve half shirt and a highwaisted skirt that was kinda gold-ish red  r school colors .. i but on some earrings and curled my hair .. i thought i looked cute .. to finish it off i put on my purse to match my skirt and some black wedged heels , i took my note book to the game so i could write his letter while i watched him play ... it read something like this :

i see you at school every day i came to this game hoping i make your day looking at you makes me feel sometype of way when you smile it makes all my worries float away but the thing is im to afraid to say "heey" .. i just want to get to know you even though i already know your name but mabe later on we can save a date to hang .. so im asking you , what do you say ?? ( if you write back place in locker 2186

i know my letter wasn't long but i don't want to scare him off with the creepy stuff .. i went back to the hotel before the game was over so i can slip the letter under his door .. i wrote on a light pink piece oof paper and Wrote " august alsina" going across ... PERFECT !