I did it again. i fucked up. i lost the best thing that ever happened to me because of puppy love.
why cant i stay normal? why cant i stay happy? i love him i really do but i fucked up and its all my fault, everything is my fault. i wish i could go back into time and fix everything but i cant. life hates me and i hate living. its not worth it none of it is. i hate everything. i hate my life. i hate the fact im still breathing and i hate the fact i lost him.
he made me happy. he made me feel like i was loved and i loved him back. but like i said i let puppy love get in the way. fuck god must hate me and right now i hate him. christmas is coming up and guess what? i have no one. take that back i have my best friend Abby but thats it all because of some troll. i let some troll get in the way of my happiness. im not calling the person a troll to be mean but he really IS a troll. -sighs- why cant i be dead?
bye until the next time i fuck up
~Acacia
