bleeding someone help me.

naked day

When I woke up two days later, and was told I still had to do all the choirs that I had miss including the ones for today so I did. I didn't try to talk or say anything I didn't even look at anyone, my wolf was trying to heal us as much as he could  but there was so many injuries  that he mostly worked on the wolf ban in my mouth and throat. I haven't talked in 7 years now going to be turning 18 tomorrow  and will finally shift into my wolf for the first time and hopefully  find my mate  but I don't think he will want me anyways, When I look like this. Once I get  up for the day I start on your daily routine once done with everything  I need to do I head to my room more like cell and grad my ragged old blanket and ripped teddy bear the blanket dose nothing to keep the warmth in and it not even that cold out its just that, I'm always so cold now I probably  weigh about 65 lb and my body dosen't produce the heat I need and that's why I get sick all the time but no one cares and most of the time I don't  change when I do get sick I'm just hoping that I'll survive this shift tonight. My dad came down around 11 just an hour before I'm supposed to shift and gives me my daily beating and leaves me laying on the floor and as the clock strikes 12 I feel a little pain but not bad I've had worse punishments that hurt more then this it takes about 45 minutes for me to fully shift. When I stood up on all 4 and see a pure white wolf in the reflection  of the water on the floor and only about the size of a normal size dog I almost look like a pup. Most werewolves  are about the size of a cow. Why am I always so small. my wolf growls at me for calling us small Oh I almost forgot  my wolfs name is jade. He tells me things will go better and to not give up but to be honest  I think I already have. I decide to sleep in woolf form because I was warmer with my furr. I woke to the sound of a bang on my cell and looked up to see the alpha, and look down at myself to see if have turned back to human form at some point in the night and was now sitting naked I look around and see my shredded clothing from my shift. He opens  my cell door and grades my hair and tells me to get up and make sure that the house is spotless  and start of a fancy dinner because an alpha  and Beata are coming to visit the pack tonight and talk about a treaty. I asked  if I could have some clothes first and he just laughs and pushes me hard back towards  the ground  and then calls me names as he walks out with out looking back, I get up and go up the stairs naked. I clean the house and then head to the kitchen  to start on dinner. As I walk there pack members keep on staring and then started throwing objects  at me like beer bottles and one even hit me with a lamp and I broke on me and I had to clean it up before alpha  saw it. As I was cleaning it up a few of the more mean  wolf's pushed my upper  half down to the ground making my bare butt go in the air as I hear them all laughter and then feel a sering pain in my ass as they shove a object  up my ass I some how  got out of there grip and ran to the kitchen  and I tryed to take what ever it was out of my ass but I couldn't  it was stuck so I tryed my best to continue  dinner of course  after I washed my hands. I was almost done with dinner now, when drake came in  he walked straight to me and kicked me where the sun don't shine, I fell to the ground grabbing myself in my hands when I felt something  wet and sticky  and relised I was bleeging again, and then my brother started kicking everywhere  and lastly  he kicked my head and it slammed into the counter and I blacked out. When I woke up I saw it had only been about 30 minutes  that I was out. I quickly  cleaned most of the blood off me and In marched the alpha with a murderous look on his face and yells at me to finish dinner and then to serve  it to them when done. Once done  put everything  on plates and walked into the dining room  to be hit by an amazing  smell it smelled like fresh cut grass and fall leaves then I realized I had been staring at the visiting alpha from the blue  moon pack and, I see the daggers of my own alpha heading for me out of being impatient  as he gets up and takes the plates from me and sets them down in front  of  everyone as I counted to state at the other alpha and I hear my wolf yell mate I'm to caught up in my thoughts now to realize that my alpha now stood in front of me and then felt the blow to my stomach  and then head and everywhere  else he felt like hitting I fell down and just layed there not caring anymore my mate just watched and didn't do anything  he dosent want me I give up. I close my eyes as they get heavy  and I hear two chairs  scoot out and then something big falling to the ground and then warm tingles shooting all over me as I pass out.