What is love ?

Chapter3

Raven had tears in her eyes as she looked at me angry you can't kiss me !! There was no love in that kiss !!! She ran away to her next class leaving me speechless . Wait ! I I didn't mean it . I walk to science as look around the room because I already knew most of the material as a banging noise came at my dest. Shane ?  Are we paying attention ? I look up at the teacher nodding and he went back to teaching ,after the bell rang I hurriedly grab my my stuff from my locker and escape the school getting on my motor bike and driving home , school was exhausting . Meow!!  I look at the floor . Hey tigger . I smile and rub his soft fluffy head wondering how the hell I was going to school tomorrow without pissing off Raven or even worse making her cry in front of everybody .  It made my heart flutter just thinking about it .  What is this feeling ..it's warm gentle and kind it makes my heart blush . The big question I should be asking is ...am I in love ? I mean what am I kidding I dint know what love is ... What is love ? I sigh and lay on my bed to do homework .shane I'm home ! . Great my dads home he's a nasty old bitch ,but I tend to ignore him which pisses him off but I don't really care. Shane god damn you I said I'm home .i sigh and holler back I herd you god damn ! I grab my home work and go work in the guest room or moms room . I don't usually talk about her ,dad would kill me if I brought her name up , she died 3 years ago from an unknown cause but I think my dad did it ,and I'm not a detective so who am I to point out people ..my life sucks I miss my mom I'm sick with some deseise called love and ....I need help