Happily never after

Chapter 2

"Your pregnant" my mother whispered to me.
My vision went black and the last thing I remember was hitting the floor.
I woke to the sound of knives and forks scraping plates, and the mouthwatering smell of food. I took in my surroundings and realised I was laying on the couch in my mothers apartment. My mother, father, Killian and Henry were around the table eating, while Neal was sat by my feet.
I lifted my head, and the movement caused Neal to broadcast my consciousness.
Killian was knelt beside me in an instant asking me if I was okay, while my mother hung over me feeling my forehead, and my father and Henry were stood behind the couch. Killian informed me I was out for about an hour, so in that time they decided they would have tea.
My mother and Killian helped me up off the couch and over to the table, where a plate of pie and chips were waiting for me.
Once I had eaten and had drunk some water, my mom directed me up to My old room. I knew what was coming.
"Emma we need to talk about this"
"Talk about what mom? The fact that I've most probably screwed my life up... AGAIN?"
"Honey, calm down, you have screwed no ones life up okay?" Her response automatically got me even more irritated.
"Mom, I can't bring a baby into this world of villains, it's not fair" on the last word my voice cracked, and I could see how much that affected my mother.
She let one tear slip down her face, before she carried on with the conversation.
"Emma, listen, I had Neal, and he is a happy, healthy little boy, none of this has affected him!"
I had to stop myself from rolling my eyes.
"Mom, Neal was taken away from you the minute he was born by the evil queens wicked sister... what if that happens to me? What if I can't be a good mother? I don't know how to be one!" Tear we're rolling down my face but I ignored them.
"Emma honey, everything will be fine, your going to have this baby and get through this like you do with everything, you are the saviour after all!"
"Well maybe I DONT want to be the saviour" I couldn't believe I had just said that.
I stormed downstairs before my mom could catch me, told my dad we were leaving and before he could stop me, grabbed henrys arm and left.
Henry stayed quiet, knowing I was annoyed, and when we got to the bug he sat in the back.
I waited 5 minutes for Killian, but once he never came out, I pulled out of the driveway and drove home.
The ride home was silent, the only noise was the loud engine.
When we got back, Henry went to his room and I threw myself on the couch.
I couldn't stop thinking about what would happen if I had a child, and it was taken away, or I couldn't be a good mother. A few minutes later, I found myself sobbing so loudly that Henry was drawn out of his room.
He was startled to find me sobbing, and probably expected me to stop, but I couldn't.
I look at Henry, and I see an intelligent, funny and well behaved kid, who I couldn't bring up.
It made me cry even harder.
He sat down next to me and I birthed my head into his hair.
"Oh kid what have I done?"
"What's going on" his voice cracked, which made me cry harder. How could I put him through this?
I needed to be calm. I can't panic him, or burden him with my problems, he's still just a kid.
I straightened my hair and wiped my face with my sleeve.
I didn't know how to say it, so I found my handbag and pulled the pregnancy stick out to show him.
He stared in disbelief.
His eyes welled up with tears. I stared at him, at his reaction, for what seemed like hours, until Killian broke the silence by opening the door.
"How could you?" Henry spotted at me. Killian saw the pregnancy test in my trembling hand, and put two and two together. He strides over and folded me in his arms. I found myself uncontrollably crying once again. It's the hormones.
After I had calmed down, we sat down to talk about it.
"What's going on love?"
I just shrugged my shoulders, I didn't know what to say.
He took this as a sign I didn't want to talk and grabbed the pregnancy test out of my hand.
He didn't stop looking at it. When he looked up at me, I noticed tears streaming down his face.
"We're having a child, love?"
I nodded.
"What's wrong then?"
"Nothing, it's just, I can't help but think what if I'm not good enough? I couldn't raise Henry because I was in prison, what's to say this time I can't raise a child because I'm fighting villains?"
He processed my reply, and once he had, he looked at me in the eyes.
"Love, nothing will ever stop you from being a good mother. I've seen how you are with Henry, your brilliant! And you'll be even better with this child!"
"Killian I've seen what might happen, I've had first class experience! My mother having a child, after she couldn't raise me! How will this affect Henry?"
He chuckled slightly "don't worry about Henry Love, he's a strong lad, he will adjust, we will help him"
"Killian... I can't be here with a newborn! It's not safe! With the ex evil queen... and the wicked witch and the lord of the underworld and rumplestiltskin! It's too much"
"Then we'll go! We'll take the ship, and go far away from here, together, just me, you, Henry and the bump! Come away with me swan. Will you?"
I smiled at the thought.
I can already imagine it.
The wind in my hair, the smell of the sea, the creaking and rocking if the boat.
Henry sailing the ship, with Killian by his side.
A baby Killian toddling around, swaying along with the boat.
And me in the corner, reading a book, taking it all in.
"Yes"