The Struggle

Leaving?

3:45 am. I quietly roll out of bed slip on a pair of flats and go to the front closet by the front door grab my backpack,slipped it on my back,grabbed my purse and tip-toed to the front door. Then someone flicked on the lights. "Shit." i mumbled to myself.

"Where the fuck you think yo black ass goin?"

"i uhh i wa-" i was interupted by his hand hitting my face. "Shut the fuck up you lien ass bitch." he says kicking me in the stomach. He punched me the face then went into the bedroom. I clean up the mess then go into the restroom to clean up my face. I look in the mirror and see a hideous face staring back at me. She has dark skin, brown eyes,stood about 5'5,with curly locks of hair which was pulled into a bun and the boys loved her but she couldnt see or understand why. I used to love myself and everything about me i used to think that my black is beautiful until about 6 months ago when Blake first hit me. He swore he would never do it again but the beating continued. Thats why i tried to leave but it didnt work obviously.

"Baby im sorry i just dont want you to leave me." Blake said wrapping his arms around my waist from behind. I ignored his comment and put away the peroxide."Baby look at me." he said tracing kisses on my neck stopping at my sweet spot.I turned around to face his beautiful green eyes. He has black curls a six pack and pretty pink plump lips and he is about 6'.

"What Blake."

"Baby im sorry.I just dont want you to leave me. I promise to do better."

"You say that every time."

"Im serious." He said kissing me.I kissed him back he went to bed and i finished up what i was doing. "Come lay down with baby." I slowly walk to the bed and lay down with my back facing him. He wrapped his arms around me and we fell asleep.

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I wake up in the morning and Blake isnt in bed with me. I get up and shuffle to the restroom to brush my teeth then walk into the living room to see Blake sitting fully dressed watching t.v.

"Where you goin?"

"We goin to tha mall so go get dressed."

I go to the closet and contemplate on what to wear. I decide on bleached highwaisted jeans,a peach colored tank top,a gold scarf,gold sandals and gold accessories. I add light makeup to hide my bruises and i add red lipstick to cover my busted lip. I grab my phone,purse,and touch up makeup and go into the living room to get Blake.

"Im ready." Blake slipped his phone away and stood up.

"Mmm.you look sexxy babe." I blush looking down."Lets go." he said grabbing my hand leading me to the car.

"When we get to tha mall yo ass betta not talk to no niggas." Blake says cruising. "Im not."

We get to the mall and we were just walking around. We went into some expensive shoe store and Blake bought me two pair of shoes. We left that store and walked around a little bit more. Blake handed me a stack and we went our seperate ways. I was lookin for the Gucci store and couldnt find it nowhere. On the way there i did see Blake all up on some hoe who had her ass and titties hanging out. I just kept walking i finally spotted the Gucci store and walked in. I went straight to the dresses. I picked out a long white and gold dress that had a long V shaped slit down the front which stopped at the bellybutton. I took it into the fitting room and tried it on. I was pretty satisfied with how it looked so i proceeded to check out.I pulled out MY credit card and payed for my dress. I was walking out the store and my phone rang and i was fumbling around in my purse to get it. Once i finally got it out i bumped into something or someone and it fell.