Meh Art Book 2!!

FUCK MY LIFE

You can skip this, it's just a mixture of emotions I have and you might not understand or will I don't care.

Breathes in

Listen

I am a blunt and straightforward person.

I will tell you the fucking cold hearted truth to your god damn face. And sadly I honestly do not think of people's reactions when I do this.

I tell you straight up that I am a straight forward person and that I don't bullshit around and play ass grab. It is to damn time consuming and requires too much thinking for me to sugar coat shit.

If you already know this then why in the blue hell do you continue to question me about certain things?

You already know the answer to most of these questions, and when I give my answer you respond the same fucking way like I'm the bad guy and I'm at fault.

No you brat.

Its your fucking fault, cause you already know.

I know you gave issues in life and I try my best to help you by giving advice or suggestions. What do you do?

Not shit

Not fucking shit

Not mother. fucking. shit.

So why should I put in the effort to help if you wont go and do shit!?

I know life is difficult, you have it rougher than me, hell compared to you I'm a fucking PRINCE.

But to me you're pretty, fucking BEAUTIFUL, you're way better looking than me, you're smarter than me, and you have all the good traits like being considerate and love that about you sometimes.

but you call yourself ugly, and it pisses me off. You say your stupid and I want to fight someone. You care too much about what others think of you when the ones that love you tell you otherwise. It shouldn't matter, only the people you love should matter.

Why can't you see this!?

It pisses me off, yea, I suck as a person, and I think I'm no good for you, and I admit I can be the most brutal person on earth to you.

You call yourself ugly

I can make you feel ugly if that's what you truly think. I can cut you down in a quick second and make you cry and honey I will be hell on  fucking earth to you!? That's how fucked up in the head I am.

Its not just you, it's other people as well you know. I feel like so many people come to me with their problems seeking advice and I give it to them. And some of you use it and I'm glad you got on with fucking life!! I am!

But sometimes I feel like finding a corner and rocking back and forth and screaming and crying and just tearing up the place. But I don't, I be simple minded and smile, and forget about it and move on. But sometimes I get reminders and I just wanna tear my room apart again.

I wanna break the glass, rip up the covers, punch the door off the hinges again and break everything and just scream to the world:

SUCK. MY. DICK.

AND FUCK YOU!!

but I don't, cause I have to keep myself together in order to make it. I gave to finish school, finish university, find a job, meet someone, have kids and just be happy!

And I just realized life is so fucking short!!! Its not fair! And most of it is chosen for you or based on the wrong decision you made by mistake.

Nobody cares tho, they'll laugh! And say things like why didn't you do this and that?

Because its fucking life!!! They expect you to take all the bullshit they through and not break?!

Well I'm close to breaking, so close, to the point where its just me questioning life and .......

And.......

Fuck it.

Fuuuuccckkkkk itttttttt

I am not emotionally stable, I am nor physically stable, but I'm better off that most people. In grateful for that. So grateful, because some of you have it so much worse than me and I wish you luck.

But I just realized.........

The world will be a better place without humans.