What have I done?

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When my heart just breaks down

when I can't handle it any longer.

When I realize, 

it is no more just a crush.

When I realize

he is my first love.

That's when I ask myself,

"What have I done?"

When I realize

I cant just hold it in.

All I want is to run into his arms

and give him a tight hug.

When I realize

I have fallen in love.

That's when I ask myself,

"What have I done?"

It has happened,

what I thought I would never fall prey to

has, in the end, conquered me.

Well, it was bound to happen,

Who wouldn't fall in love with him?

That's when you ask yourself,

"What have I done?"

He asks, tell me, whom do you love?

I muster the courage and tell him.

The very next moment he says,

"No, you cannot love me.

your love is fake.

You have to change your heart."

That's when you ask yourself,

"What have I done?"

You don't fall in love everyday.

When I finally did, 

he tells me it is fake.

Beautifully wonderful, isn't it?

When I turn around the pillow,

because this side is too wet,

That's when I ask myself,

"What have I done?"

But then again I think,

of the beautiful moments,

spent with him.

The times he made me laugh

out loud, and the times

when he cracked jokes, 

just for me.

The feeling I had, 

when I looked at him.

My heart's elation,

when he smiled at me.

My soul brightening

with his glow.

I do love him, 

yet I don't.

That's when I think,

"What have I done?"